Monday, April 19, 2010
today, i just learnt that, not only the quiet can cut like knives.
its about time.. i have what i need.. answers.. so.. in any relationship, reciprocation is dire..
i will do likewise..
but just so you know, it freaking hurts..
tomorrow is a brand new day, but the memories remain the same..
thanks for everything, it wasnt much, but ill cherish it all.
when it comes to you, sticks and stones break my bones, your words, they kill.
its about time.. i have what i need.. answers.. so.. in any relationship, reciprocation is dire..
i will do likewise..
but just so you know, it freaking hurts..
tomorrow is a brand new day, but the memories remain the same..
thanks for everything, it wasnt much, but ill cherish it all.
when it comes to you, sticks and stones break my bones, your words, they kill.
jared thought about you at 11:15:00 PM
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Bled For Me
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
every morning, i wake up, the first thing that comes to my mind is you. back then, i sat up in bed with a smile, now, i wish i didnt have to wake up. cause when i think of you, what comes next? the thought that i dont have you in my life, in that kind of way. and there's absolutely nothing i can do about it. i know im not the only with problems, i know you have your fair share of decision making. so pardon me if im whiny and if i keep ranting. and i refuse to move on because, i just cant. but if it's affecting you in the sense that im slowing down your efforts to move on, (if you are trying to move on) then just let me know, cause i will let go.. just say the words.. my heart cant be any more sadder than this. oh wait, yes it can.. whatever makes you happy, im game for that.
no use pouring your feelings into someone's cup when there's a lid on, or when the cup is full. the holder wont appreciate spills.
follow your heart, live it to God, and everything will fall into place.
no use pouring your feelings into someone's cup when there's a lid on, or when the cup is full. the holder wont appreciate spills.
follow your heart, live it to God, and everything will fall into place.
jared thought about you at 3:50:00 PM
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Bled For Me
Monday, April 12, 2010
because live with you for a year, is clearly not enough..
can i get a likewise for this too?
can i get a likewise for this too?
jared thought about you at 5:16:00 PM
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Bled For Me
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Since diving is known as a high risk sport, I'm going to pretend it's my last day. So I'm going to try to say all that I've been feeling. I'm sry if I will make your life more difficult. But for all you know, you might prefer to hav known than to not know at all.
I just want you to know that, I think I was in love with you. Incase you were wondering, yes, I cried just before typing that. I've never met anyone so beautiful. So beautiful that I don't deserve such divinity. And the only time I felt good enough was when I had a special place in you heart. And the words you said, the things you did to prove it. And now there's nothing left. You are my drive to do everything within my power. You are the reason why I do so many things that I didn't use to do. You are the reason why I man up. You are the reason why I write music. Ive never felt so strongly about anyone before. And I'm glad to say it wasn't a waste.
My intentions were good. But you didn't need them, where we are right now is the evidence. But I don't blame you.
All I want is for you to be happy.
And If you're happy with being friends. Then I'm happy too. Cause at least I can still see you and see you smile.
I crumble at the sight of you. I lose my ability to breathe. I am brought down to my knees. Because you're so stunning.
The first month we had was the best and happiest month of my entire life.
I will not cry. I will not cry. I will not cry. Too late. I will not cry on the mrt. Too late. Thank god there's not many ppl around.
She likes the boy, but she can only love a man.
And a man is what I am not. But you make me the man I'm supposed to become.
You're my favourite girl, I am your foolish boy. Fg and Fb. Stands for more than our own names in the distant past.
I am the butterfly that landed on the most exquisite flower. Butterflies dies before flowers.
I totalled the number of times I shed tears for you : 10
99% emotion 1% water
You're still that rose. Still all that I want in this world. I won't say it anymore. Just bare these in mind. And I'm not changing my mind.
I won't deny that I'm not expecting change. But I also know that you've made up your mind. I'm taking a very big risk here. It's all or nth. Being a man is about being brave. Not being afraid to take risks.
I somehow wish that after saying all this, I don't feel like coming back. Cause I'm afraid of the outcome. But, I'm going to have to anyway. I'll be strong and brave. I'll be a man.
Give me a reason to come home.
I just want you to know that, I think I was in love with you. Incase you were wondering, yes, I cried just before typing that. I've never met anyone so beautiful. So beautiful that I don't deserve such divinity. And the only time I felt good enough was when I had a special place in you heart. And the words you said, the things you did to prove it. And now there's nothing left. You are my drive to do everything within my power. You are the reason why I do so many things that I didn't use to do. You are the reason why I man up. You are the reason why I write music. Ive never felt so strongly about anyone before. And I'm glad to say it wasn't a waste.
My intentions were good. But you didn't need them, where we are right now is the evidence. But I don't blame you.
All I want is for you to be happy.
And If you're happy with being friends. Then I'm happy too. Cause at least I can still see you and see you smile.
I crumble at the sight of you. I lose my ability to breathe. I am brought down to my knees. Because you're so stunning.
The first month we had was the best and happiest month of my entire life.
I will not cry. I will not cry. I will not cry. Too late. I will not cry on the mrt. Too late. Thank god there's not many ppl around.
She likes the boy, but she can only love a man.
And a man is what I am not. But you make me the man I'm supposed to become.
You're my favourite girl, I am your foolish boy. Fg and Fb. Stands for more than our own names in the distant past.
I am the butterfly that landed on the most exquisite flower. Butterflies dies before flowers.
I totalled the number of times I shed tears for you : 10
99% emotion 1% water
You're still that rose. Still all that I want in this world. I won't say it anymore. Just bare these in mind. And I'm not changing my mind.
I won't deny that I'm not expecting change. But I also know that you've made up your mind. I'm taking a very big risk here. It's all or nth. Being a man is about being brave. Not being afraid to take risks.
I somehow wish that after saying all this, I don't feel like coming back. Cause I'm afraid of the outcome. But, I'm going to have to anyway. I'll be strong and brave. I'll be a man.
Give me a reason to come home.
jared thought about you at 8:26:00 PM
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Bled For Me
Monday, April 5, 2010
i guess it's over.. really.. the butterfly is emerging.
i just felt as though someone stepped on my heart. literally. the moment i saw it. it's like someone just poured acid on my heart.
im starting to see now.. it's clear as crystal, and much like crystal, my heart shattered.. all over the floor.
better to know and hurt than to know nth forever.
but the thing is they dont even know that i know.
seriously.. what the hell..
i just felt as though someone stepped on my heart. literally. the moment i saw it. it's like someone just poured acid on my heart.
im starting to see now.. it's clear as crystal, and much like crystal, my heart shattered.. all over the floor.
better to know and hurt than to know nth forever.
but the thing is they dont even know that i know.
seriously.. what the hell..
jared thought about you at 12:58:00 AM
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Bled For Me
Sunday, April 4, 2010
I’ve never ever been this lost. Thrown into such catastrophic turmoil. I really don’t know what to do anymore. Nth else matters anymore. Nth counts for shit. Really really truly damn lost. I just can’t wait for the weekend. Maybe some unexpected wanted change will occur. The timing couldn’t be anymore perfect. Or maybe not. I’m just feeling so screwed up yet at ease. I pray so hard that things will turn out right. I wonder what accident will befall me this weekend.
nothing else matters anymore.
im at a lost for words.
but i am truly grateful for where we are now. it's good. it's as good as it can get.
i'd rather have smth and feel like shit than to have nothing and feel like bigger shit.
so.. ya.. i ve never taken the time i spent with you for granted.
i hate saying goodbye. cause once goodbye is said, it puts an end to happy times.
nothing else matters anymore.
im at a lost for words.
but i am truly grateful for where we are now. it's good. it's as good as it can get.
i'd rather have smth and feel like shit than to have nothing and feel like bigger shit.
so.. ya.. i ve never taken the time i spent with you for granted.
i hate saying goodbye. cause once goodbye is said, it puts an end to happy times.
jared thought about you at 10:50:00 PM
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Bled For Me
