i hope you kept them, all that i inked down.those 500 odd words, the amateur art and craft. those works, were my blood and tears. those works were done from the bottom of my heart with the utmost sincerity. all for you.

maybe you've thrown them away because you thought it'd help you move on. if that were true, i hope it's something you regret doing because i'll know that they mean something to you now.

but if you havent, then of course im glad. ill give you a nice big long hug if you say hug me. i wanna take you to this special place. at nf. i think you'll find it nice, and maybbeee just a little bit romantic. if you ask me, ill take you there.

we have this undeniable polarity. it is not that big of a deal but it matters to me. ill explain if you bring it up. call it coincidence, but i call it undeniable polarity that thrills me.

ill kiss you if you let me. and whatever happens, WHATEVER happens, ill wait until youre ready.

<3

rule 1. Leave it to God

rule 2. dont assume = not making an ass out of u and me

rule 3. dont overthink = no retarded conclusions

rule 4. dont pressurize = the vessel wont explode

rule 5. dont force = it wont break

rule 6. be patient = it will come to you

rule 7. let things flow = your boat wont capsize

THESE RULES ARE NOT MEANT TO BE BROKEN!

i shall recite this every single day when i wake up. and before i go to bed.

i tell this to myself every damn day..but i forget them under pressure. why am i so stupiddddddddd. i need to keep drilling this into my head. quickly. it's part of growing up. it's the essential package in a lot of areas in life.

the only things you should force in life, are things you want to force onto yourself, not others. cause who are we to input the unwanted into people whose lives are already so comfortable. God doesnt grant us that kind of power.

SICK OF EVERY DAMN SCREWED UP EFFING THING IN MY SHIT ASS LOUSY DICK LIFE!!!! I’M EFFING DESPARATE FOR SOME DISTRACTION AND COMFORT RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANNA EFFING RUN AWAY.

HOW, HOW CAN I EFFING EVEN TRY TO FORGOT ABOUT THE ONE PERSON THAT CAN MAKE ME HAPPY. SHE WAS MY ESCAPE, MY PERFECT GETAWAY, SHE WAS MY EVERYTHING, SHE WAS MY SMILE, SHE WAS MY ANGEL THAT BROUGHT ME FUN LAUGHTER PEACE AND JOY LIKE NO OTHER COULD.

ADDING ON TO THIS, IVE LOST COUNT ON HOW MUCH TEARS IVE SHED, AND THEY WERENT FOR NOTHING.

WHY DO I HAVE ONE FLAW TOO MANY, WHY.

WHY DO I WANT THINGS I CANT HAVE.

I’D RATHER SULK AND REGRET EVERY DAMN MISTAKE I MADE EVERY DAMN DAY THAN TO FIND SOMEONE ELSE. BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT I WANT, BECAUSE IVE FOUND WHAT I NEED. AND IM GOING TO WAIT.

I’M IN LOVE WITH YOU

BUT IT DOESNT COUNT FOR SHIT

<3

i just feel like embracing you everytime. every single time. and then i would whisper in your ear, tell you how i feel about you, and that i mean everything i say, that im here to stay. for as long as you need me. i'd express my love with the words ive been longing for you to hear. ive got this speech all planned out but words may vary when the time comes. and ive got the perfect location to execute what i perceive to be, my most romanctic gesture to anyone ever. (Y) cause you're the only one worth waiting for, worth fighting for, worth dying for. i hope one day, this pathetic fantasy will turn into a beautiful reality. and it'd be more than just a beautiful memory, it'd be the greatest story of my life. by far. already fantasising the scenario(not the sick stuff)makes me happy. (Y) but that doesnt mean it's enough. i guess fantasising about it tonight, will put me to sleep with ease. hehehe. oh how i love sleep. oh im so going to bed a happy boy-man, but also, im going to bed, a happy boy-man who blanketed his fantasy over his reality.

love is patient
love is not jealous

im waiting for the green light. binggggg!!!!

if you think im stupid to be waiting for you, then go ahead, afterall, all those times you called me stupid, im sure to some degree you meant it.

cos i do, hitherto, for all time, (Y) (Y)
until you say please stop. (N) (N)

<3

i will never push you away

i will always be right behind you

i will stand by you no matter what, even if it hurts me

i will always be on the sidelines, for as long as it takes

until i can call you mine again

until then, i will wake up everyday, with you as my first thought

and go to bed with you as my last thought

ive made up my mind, i wont search for another, cause there really isnt anyone quite like you, or anyone even close.

unless you tell me right in my face, that you dont ever want me, ill continue to harbour strong feelings for you. youre the one, closest to real love, ive ever been.

when you do tell me that, then only will i start searching. i dont care if it pains me now, talking to you normally already eases the pain tremendously. (Y) (Y) (Y) (Y) that's all i need to get me by.

all the others before this, it wasnt love. it was lust. but with you, it's different. i am abosultely sure that it isnt lust. it was true love. i was this close but we couldnt carry through.

just because you are going to walk away, doesnt mean im walking away too. i will ALWAYS be waiting. i've waited for so long just to hear that you like me too, you holding my hand for the first time was the most i could ask for. you dont know how much it meant to me. it made every other intimate act i ever had with my previous ones so miniscule and microscopic. every man's greatest love wish/desire thingy, is to hold the girl of his dreams, to feel the special feeling no other can provide, a feeling so exclusive that he'd do anything to make sure he doesnt lose that feeling. that's just one of the 1000 denominations that define love, to me. oh the things i would do just to have that feeling again. i just teared, would have wept but justin is beside me

i just want you to know that, if you were with me, jealousy would be the least of our problems. cause no1. love is not jealous. no2, i know for certain that if we were together, i am the only one who can place your hand in mine and at that instant, feel as though im on top of the world. (Y) x one million. so there's no reason, absolutely none as to why i should feel jealous. of course i will feel jealous to some extent but i can get over it.

i feel much better everytime i type down all these things. cause i know that somehow you'll be able to read this. i feel much more relieved.. (Y)

you move on without me, cause there is no more we when relationships / whatever we had are over. only you and i. ill be waiting at the point where we first started. re-living the glory days just so that i can put on a smile and face the world.

i only said that we should move on to cover up for my stupidness when i asked you for a second chance. i didnt mean it when i said that we should move on. but i mean it when i say now, that im not moving on. you can if you want to. or we could just sit down and solve this. or not..

im ready, whenever you are, to discuss anything and everything

i promise all ill do is listen, i wont say anything unless you ask me to.

you dont have to fear that i might say something wrong out of impulse or anything, ill just shut up and listen. if i open my mouth, i dont deserve your trust ever again. cause i'd be breaking an important promise

you should be expecting a post, whenever i find everything too overwhelming, if you find that reading my posts isnt doing you good, then dont read. i just need to let everything out, and pretend that youve seen them. the only major lies ive ever told were lies to myself. and also to my grandma and some friends when they ask me how are you, and i say fine. ha.

well look on the bright side, reviewing everythingggggggggggggg. i'd say ive gotten quite far.as compared to last time. so, it's something to be thankful for. blessings like these arent easy to come by, im gonna cherish this for as long as i live. so i guess ill put a smile here. (: havent had a real smile since.. since everything came crashing down.

im not going to ask for another chance anymore, because i cant simply ask of you, what you cannot offer. that is just selfish. cause if you wanted another shot, you would have said so by now.

the more appropriate question should have been, where do we go from here, instead of that impulse bullshit "but that doesnt mean you have to call it quits. etc etc etc."

i should have just stuck to "i just wanna go with the flow" cause that's when you said awww. and when you say awww. it's always something good. it makes me go aww too.

see all this should haves.. i just cant get it right cause im impatient, impatient for change.i used to be a very patient kid. just slap me now. kick me punch me, you can even put me in a cannon and launch me.

if you chance upon this, then goooddddd, if not, let it be the unsaid last words, the words never HEARD or SAID are always the words that MEAN the most. that have the GREATEST EFFECT.

i never said you had to agree with everything i said.

why.. why am i so impatient. why do i forget so quickly, the words i said that made you happy.
why.. why am i such an idiot.. why... im just so mad at myself. why am i such a destroyer.
why.. really... FREAKING WHY...

im living a life with so much regret now.

all because of one incident, everything began to fall, like the walls of jericho.

it's time i let you fly.
i know you can.
i think it's easier for you cause you told me that you never liked me as much as i did you.
logically speaking..

i sorta know more now.. what can and cannot be said.

rule no1 dont assume

i dont know shit...really...

i wish things would stop being so confusing. that everything would just come clean. or at least, all the important details..

cause im receiving unwanted damage, i feel that im being toyed with.

i feel like im just a replacement.

i really dont know what's going on. and it's not easy getting thru this.

im tired of being lost, and misled.

when it comes to love, i learned a very important point.
what hurts the most isnt that it is over, it is when the other has started over with another.

today, i just learnt that, not only the quiet can cut like knives.

its about time.. i have what i need.. answers.. so.. in any relationship, reciprocation is dire..

i will do likewise..

but just so you know, it freaking hurts..

tomorrow is a brand new day, but the memories remain the same..

thanks for everything, it wasnt much, but ill cherish it all.

when it comes to you, sticks and stones break my bones, your words, they kill.

every morning, i wake up, the first thing that comes to my mind is you. back then, i sat up in bed with a smile, now, i wish i didnt have to wake up. cause when i think of you, what comes next? the thought that i dont have you in my life, in that kind of way. and there's absolutely nothing i can do about it. i know im not the only with problems, i know you have your fair share of decision making. so pardon me if im whiny and if i keep ranting. and i refuse to move on because, i just cant. but if it's affecting you in the sense that im slowing down your efforts to move on, (if you are trying to move on) then just let me know, cause i will let go.. just say the words.. my heart cant be any more sadder than this. oh wait, yes it can.. whatever makes you happy, im game for that.


no use pouring your feelings into someone's cup when there's a lid on, or when the cup is full. the holder wont appreciate spills.

follow your heart, live it to God, and everything will fall into place.

because live with you for a year, is clearly not enough..

can i get a likewise for this too?

Since diving is known as a high risk sport, I'm going to pretend it's my last day. So I'm going to try to say all that I've been feeling. I'm sry if I will make your life more difficult. But for all you know, you might prefer to hav known than to not know at all.

I just want you to know that, I think I was in love with you. Incase you were wondering, yes, I cried just before typing that. I've never met anyone so beautiful. So beautiful that I don't deserve such divinity. And the only time I felt good enough was when I had a special place in you heart. And the words you said, the things you did to prove it. And now there's nothing left. You are my drive to do everything within my power. You are the reason why I do so many things that I didn't use to do. You are the reason why I man up. You are the reason why I write music. Ive never felt so strongly about anyone before. And I'm glad to say it wasn't a waste.

My intentions were good. But you didn't need them, where we are right now is the evidence. But I don't blame you.

All I want is for you to be happy.
And If you're happy with being friends. Then I'm happy too. Cause at least I can still see you and see you smile.

I crumble at the sight of you. I lose my ability to breathe. I am brought down to my knees. Because you're so stunning.

The first month we had was the best and happiest month of my entire life.

I will not cry. I will not cry. I will not cry. Too late. I will not cry on the mrt. Too late. Thank god there's not many ppl around.

She likes the boy, but she can only love a man.

And a man is what I am not. But you make me the man I'm supposed to become.

You're my favourite girl, I am your foolish boy. Fg and Fb. Stands for more than our own names in the distant past.

I am the butterfly that landed on the most exquisite flower. Butterflies dies before flowers.

I totalled the number of times I shed tears for you : 10

99% emotion 1% water

You're still that rose. Still all that I want in this world. I won't say it anymore. Just bare these in mind. And I'm not changing my mind.

I won't deny that I'm not expecting change. But I also know that you've made up your mind. I'm taking a very big risk here. It's all or nth. Being a man is about being brave. Not being afraid to take risks.

I somehow wish that after saying all this, I don't feel like coming back. Cause I'm afraid of the outcome. But, I'm going to have to anyway. I'll be strong and brave. I'll be a man.

Give me a reason to come home.

i guess it's over.. really.. the butterfly is emerging.

i just felt as though someone stepped on my heart. literally. the moment i saw it. it's like someone just poured acid on my heart.

im starting to see now.. it's clear as crystal, and much like crystal, my heart shattered.. all over the floor.

better to know and hurt than to know nth forever.

but the thing is they dont even know that i know.

seriously.. what the hell..

I’ve never ever been this lost. Thrown into such catastrophic turmoil. I really don’t know what to do anymore. Nth else matters anymore. Nth counts for shit. Really really truly damn lost. I just can’t wait for the weekend. Maybe some unexpected wanted change will occur. The timing couldn’t be anymore perfect. Or maybe not. I’m just feeling so screwed up yet at ease. I pray so hard that things will turn out right. I wonder what accident will befall me this weekend.

nothing else matters anymore.
im at a lost for words.
but i am truly grateful for where we are now. it's good. it's as good as it can get.
i'd rather have smth and feel like shit than to have nothing and feel like bigger shit.
so.. ya.. i ve never taken the time i spent with you for granted.
i hate saying goodbye. cause once goodbye is said, it puts an end to happy times.

Tell me, what makes you so damn poweful. It's like the moment you step in and moments after that, everything bad slowly goes away. I feel like life has meaning again. I sleep better. I'm so much more at peace. How do I explain this. Nevertheless, you're still my source of true Happiness. All those times I was having fun, never did I once not wish you were right beside me. Sure,Those fun times were real but none of them worth crying over like the short lived moments I had with you. Those moments were priceless. I never ever took them for granted.

You're my angel, that wraps me around in your majestic wings. And i am healed. You're the sun that rises to break through my dark horizon. And I can live in the day. Youre the beacon of light in my maze. And i struggle my way to you cause safety is where you are. You're the blessing everyone wished they had. And I walk with happiness residing within me. I only have the Lord to thank for this.

i will no longer be blogging here. my new "blog" can be visited at www.creepinglikecrabs.tumblr.com

life has never been better. and it's all thanks to you. (:

It's the first post of the year 2010. And I'm doing it w my iPhone!

Jus realized my blog is beyond reviving.

my life So far:

Had the best day of my life and 2009. On the last day of 2009 w the best girl ever.
2010 will be so exciting. As anxious and excited I am. I'm kinda scared too.

I've learnt Alot from the past few years. I should be fine.

I really can't afford to screw things up.
I've become a man who can proudly say : I'm loving the dream.

I jus hope I don't have to wake up or that the dream will last forever.

I sold myself to the idea that good things come to those who wait. And I'd say that I made the best deal ever.

This time for sure,I'll Noe how to love

my life so far:

confirmation! woo! it was good. my name is DAVID

and common tests were great. im quite confident i can do well.

band is coming over tomorrow to jam

oh ya, got a drum set in my new home(:

back to dota days again.

there is no use for a blog now that there's twitter.

gymnastics has been alright. improving slowly. its tough mannn

have yet to go out w marilyn for her ice cream! so busyyy. so sorry mal

have yet to watch planet 51 and avatar! ):

imkrcb is exactly wad u think it is.

erm.. recently hoooked on fishville. haha

and GOSSIP GIRL! did i fail to mention.

gonna create new music w ashdown tomorow! ALTERNATE BAND FOR THE WIN!

jus wanna say.... happy birthday to robin.

you will ALWAYS have a place in my heart. one of my best bros ever. until i go army. lol kidding,
thank you for all the laughs, for all the non-stop talking. u really noe how to liven any environment. just dont do the same for a funeral. later the ghost buay song.

erm. xh and jerome's bdays coming up soon too.

common tests coming. SHITTZXZXZX. confirm gg.

gonna watch legend of the seeker now. pretty main character :D wootss

im tired.

isly.

gonna watch new moon later on in the afternoon. absss... ooooo

common tests are coming. i really dont feel like having commitments such as school. jus wanna concentrate on other things. good thing i only have one examinable module. or maybe 2.

today is just too dam hot. poor penguins and other antartic animals.. ): i feel for them. here we are complaining and we dont have insulation. wad about that! all that thick fur and blubber. its jus so saddening. we should start a campaign. SHAVE THOSE POLAR BEARS! i guess thatll help them cool down. then again theres a chance of u getting mauled to death and becoming cute lil baby bear's desert.

and i jus realised im babbling.

anyway. now's the wrong time to get hooked on gossip girl.

my current attachment just became a detachment that reattached my detached heart.

wad?... ok. i will try my best to study.

i cant help but say.. its nice to know how you truly feel. after all this while.

CHAO OUUSAIII.

ps. i FREAKING HATE BAD ROMANCE BY LADY GAGA

went back to unity today. miss that place like hell. ): good to see haiman and gang and marilyn.

i thought i was running a fever jus nw.. hmmm..

anyway. began watching 2 new shows. mighty morhpin power rangers series1 the best series ever. and gossip girl.

im actually surprised im watching a chick show. first impression : chuck is douchebag. serena is only the prettiest. dan is so cute. i can relate to him.

gym tomorrow! (: i hope somehow i get a fever, lazy go sch.

semi-exicted to watch gossipgirl tomorrow. oh no... im one of them now..

good night world.

okay wasssupppppppppp. my laptop is A-OKAY!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO. and tweetdeck is jus the coolest shit!

so... tomorrow all shall be revealed.

hmmm. oh yes.. got lots of school work to do ): tonight i mus chiong alr.

stop waiting for an opportunity, create one.

i know you're scared. im just as scared as you are. but if you are willing, ill be waiting

i thought it'd be easier as the day came closer. but i guess i was clearly mistaken. the urges are stronger than ever, feelings deeper than ever.nothing can disguise this endeavour.
desparation will lead to being selfish and that would screw things up when the best moment is jus round the corner..

i need to see you or at least hear you.
time has passed so much that thinking isnt good enough anymore
i cant wait for the day to say.
take my hand lets see what god has in store..

sup people. reinstated the computer in the new house.. but now my lappy spoil... even after reformatting.

so new house is alright. looks better and better. cant wait for the music room and my DRUM SET!!!!!!!! SHIOK-A-NATHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gonna drum like everyday waaaaaaaaa cant wait manzxzxzxzxx!!!!!!!!!!

ecstatic,euphoric,cloud 9 thats wad u make me.

i realised... everyday i come home... i pangsai.....

and im sick. got the very weird hong gan feeling in my throat, MUS BE NANA and my mother.

its been 8 days since i moved in to my new house. not too bad i should say.. just fixed the internet.

i havent dota-ed in 8 days ):

school: not bad.. timetable quite good. but i might have to cut my hair.. arghhhh nvm.. and here i thought poly was all about liberty to do whatever you want and stuff. i guess i was wrong. as the fat lady in xiao hai bu ben(i not stupid) says, if i give u all the freedom, u will burst like a balloon..

Luke said to Jared " who are you trying to kid? "

last few days in my house ):

im soooo gonna miss this house laaaa. so convenient. so sheltered and all..

my new house must walk 5min jus to get to the main road bus stop... super sian. and HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

i gonna carry small umbrella every time alr.

im looking forward to the movie marathons to come. shiok :D

and the drum set!!!!!

and school is starting omggggggggggggg. i dun wannna go to schoollllllll. but then again, there's something to look forward to every morning. KAYA BUTTER BUN WITH TEH PINGGGGG!!!!! shiokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...

ok time to brainstorm on a longshot

happy birthday to celestine and vanessa.. danker...

celestine: im still sorry about that time.. sorry. but anyway, all the best with u and yy. u and school. pick the right school this time. no matter what, yy will be there. so might i. ok will i.

vanessa: u are a loser.. but nvm, u make up for it somehow. i dunno wad to say for u. really. erm...
thanks for the effort.

practice makes perfect.

my temper has been becoming worse this week. too much dota. correction, too much losing in dota.

thus, ive made an oath, no dota for a week. or a few days at least until i come to my senses. gosh... games...

tomorrow is my confirmation test. so not ready. but i hope the 5 of us can make it this year. i hope.. pray for us man.

school starting in 2 weeks. o levels coming when? around the same time? or slightly later.

i dun wanna become a monster.

i dunno wad else to do online man.. besides dota. facebook like. nothing leh.

i think i got sore throat coming.

everybody falling sick. kimberley, jerome, grandma and now me.

tomorrow will be a better day.

shit.. i lost every round of pool.... EVERY SINGLE round!. and i didnt have nasi goreng cina padrik thai. i had.. nasi goreng pataya. then i saw the receipt, the guy put xxxchilli. means no chilli right? then wad the shit.. got like chilli saus or chili sos sprayed in lines all over my pataya.... u tell me wad the hel is the xxx for? if those were the wheel of fortune blanks. xxx = put.

oh well i enjoyed the teh ping. but the condensed milk expanded my stomach. ):

wa today.. i rotted at home. but it was good rotting. gooddd.......

sudden infatuation with anberlin. and alternate music.

and the best band award goes to dear dakota. and best song 2009 is the way she feels by between the trees.

and wHY AM I BLOGGING ABOT THIS SHIT..

when i go nana's house on monday i WILL BUY the imba kaya bread from sheng siong outside... oh yea.. hail orange kaya and fattening butter.

birthday wishes. hmm.. to vivien tan.

although there is absolutely no chance that u will read this. i jus wanna say, u are a great fren. u are capable of loving someone unconditionally. and u should be thankful for such a wonderful gift. ur other half will be very blessed to have u. all the best in ur life. raise ur self esteem.

to kimberley bruce..

wad can i say. if our friendship was a movie, the genre would be, psychological thriller. but still im thankful for knowing u. youre smart and capable. i hope u realise that. all the best in ur life too.

and to both of u and other olevel students. look at the clock. are u scared? ask urself wad have u done? is it satifactory? sieze every opportunity u have to study. dun regret doing a course or entering a jc u dont like. trust me i have frens who are like that. im sure u have frens like that too. no offence. but ya. dun watch them live a mistake and do nothing about ur own future. its never too late. NEVER. so go kick some GCE butt. :D god bless.

OKAY LOOKS LKE ITS TIME TO GO AL AMEEN FOR SOME SUPER SHIOK TEH PING AND NASI GORENG CINA PADRIK THAI!!! AND THEN SOME POOL! I HOPE TODAY IS A GOOD POOL DAY! I DN WANNA BE OFF-FORM LIKE THE OTHER DAY...SUPER DU LAN!!!

HEROES season 5 EPI 3!!!!!!!!! FASTER COME OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!@#!_)(*&^%$#@

yeah back from tioman island! for my first dive trip!!!! shiokkkkk.

it was a good experience. but i expected abit more. maybe it's the location. i hope that i can get to dive at an even better location next time. i still havent changed my disgust for salt water but i certainly have become more accustomed to the overwhelming taste of it in my mouth. i got stung by a jellyfish!!! the photos are on my facebook.

ive decided to put back my tagboard, cause tags are the only factor that lets me know that people actually do come to this god-forsaken blog.

im in love with smallville. i hate how clark cant tell lana.. so much....... the writer complicates things to ensure that he has the fans' hearts dying to know if lana will ever find out. this is wad i call a goodddddd series! just like heroes. imba...

mannnn purevolume got one too many bands alr. i dunno how to get all those songs sia..

cant wait for next dive trip. i confirm mus buy my own fins and mask and suit alr. uncomfortable sia..

i thought i'd be happy to blog about today. but i guess the only thing im happy about today is the nice cool cloudy weather the lord has blessed me with.

i guess birthdays are getting worse and worse every year. but cant blame my frens. in singapore.. u cant have fun without money, there's not much to do, that i noe off. and doesnt mean u find something to do, everyone would want. but hey, im the bday boy. i do wad i want. but if all my frens dun like it, then ill do it alone? so who said bday is ur special day.

sec2 i got detention for my bday, sec3 i spent it playing dota, which was not too bad. sec4 more dota and swimming? this year, LAN again, but at least ate at seoul and movie. nothing special huh. i guess... it's meant to be. i feel special everyday but on the one day im supposed to feel even more special and enjoy the day more, it doesnt happen.

i guess i learnt that i shouldnt expect too much for my 18TH bday. but who noes. ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN.

and sadly, i didnt get many bday messages until robin had to conspire with 4/8 to mass message me. oh well. better than nothing. if u dun bother/cant rmb, dun dream about being remembered. but at least the messages were sincere i miss 4/8 so much, i wish we all went poly together. but we have to move on, cause the wheel of time is always rolling, we cant get too stuck in the past. if not the sentences "life is all about taking risks" "one life, live it" will be nothing more than wad they are. words.

why the hell do i sound so emo on my freaking bday. i hope tomorrow will be a super shiok day. drinking and doing retarded things with my new found frens / all time bros.

ok i have to go sleep now. tomorrow will be a better day a better celebration.

im updating my blog at the wrong time-.-. my exam is in 2days!. but fret not jared, youre ready.

okay. my bday is coming in 2weeks and 2 days..... this year's came the fastest... idk wad to expect on my bday, i jus want to enjoy and celebrate it with my different groups of frens. all on different days la obviously. but i guess bday wishes are enough.

erm i got a gig this sat... i dun expect much.. i think it's gonna be quite lousy. i havent sung and played bass in a long time. and im forced to get the touch back in like wad 2 jamming sessions..... clearly a gg. but im sureeeee we'll pull through. its all up to me to keep up the vocals.

ok im kinda in love with domokun. the japanese cute brown monster thing, i believe it's the only stuff toy thingy taht guys will like. or fancy. the pasa malam got sell leh.. but all fake one. ahhaa.

erm... prime has been great. i think im improving. but hard to progress when lesson is oly once a week.

the pasa malam blasting techno... now blasting billie jean.. dam loud la.but i miss the bouncy rides thing.

im just a 17 year old boy..

i wonder wad presents im gonna get this year. but the most amazing gift will be something from the heart. i jus want my bros to be there to have fun with me. and of course i wanna spend a day with brenda too.

i remember when i was sec2, i had detention on my bday.. but it was all worth it..(:

ok. im going to indulge in an old time habit. DEE OH TEE EH! bye bye. muarckssazxz

ok dammmm long never update.

so far:

my maid's back. today is justin's bday. my elder bro's bday was on friday.

im growing stronger. i need to start studying eng mech.

harry potter was cool. im pretty unskeptical about it la. people say wad sucks all. only about love, not much magic. i mean come on, there's only so much the director can do.

i cant wait for SPIDERMAN 4 and 5. AQUAMAN, IRONMAN 2, AVATAR THE LAST AIR BENDER, 7th and 8th HARRY POTTER, and still got wad ah.. GI JOE all those shit la.

but i jus wanna see my spiderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!! and AANG!!!!!

i wanna gig with ashdownnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.....

i wan ASHDOWN EP!!!

i got mp3! haha. borrowed from nick. and my bday is in 26DAYSSSS WEEEE

every year passes by faster and faster.

I WAN DIVE TRIPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!! I WAN MY LICENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm. wad else. my hair, i haven cut...

err. my dad says if i score majority a's for my exam, he'll get me iphone 3G. but. i dun really need such things... i just want my drumset....

okay. wad to blog about.

oh ya common tests.

all A one B. and the b is a math... wthhh... cant believe i can get b for something ive been studying for 2years... i got 78. but in poly 80 then is A. ):

er. received 2 warning letters from NP about skipping lessons. haha. wont skip again mannnxzx.

i wan dive license!

i love gym more and more.

i wan round deltoids and spartan abs.

i dun like 8am school.

i love kaya butter bun set.

2 more months to my 17th brithday!! i remember i said this last year too. hahah when i was turning 16 luh.

mannnn. im still getting labeled as some 20year old douche. or at least 18..

cause.. IM JUST TOO BUFFFF!!! no la kiddin kiddin.

my gig was great. recording ep will be expensive.

dive camp was awesome cant wait for dive trip.

i hate efficiency of commitee....

i can lick my fringe, sideburns, back. steadyy.

peace out.

if love is suffering then i love being in love.

i caught a flu bugg... nooooooooooo.

the imprompto performance in unity was a big le drigger.

the weather SUCKS BALLS.

stupid woodlands library so dusty.

i wan double choc frappe.

monsters vs aliens is a dam cute show.

good night.

wassup people. man i have to shit dammmm bloooddyyy badly now. but i couldnt move away from the com cause i was in a dota game. yeah i aced my math test. freaking careless mistakes... 73 divided by 33 i put 22. something...-.- like that 2 marks. then one more mark careless. if not can full marks siallllll chibong....

MY MATH LECTURER TRICEP DAM BIG SIA!! i got held back and told at by her today after class for saying that. HAHA! oh well.

MAPLEHHHH!!!!!

went to study with yi guo at yew tee mac. saw marilyn that lil cutie.

OK!! BIG ANNOUNCEMENT!! MY GIG HAS BEEN CHANGED FROM THE 7TH JUNE TO 13TH JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

ok need to shit dammm badly now.....byebye.

should i cancel hybrid concession?!?!??!!?!??!

ok, a mini debate over the washing of hair.

testimonies of my peers state that washing hair everyday or more than once a day is not so good. the hair will spoil, will drop faster, and stuff. i dunno. i jus tried not washing jus now. but i went to prime, hair sure dirty and stuff. i scared i wake up with itchy head tomorrow, and wad if there is a kutu on my scalp now, then overnight like breed a million in my pillow, then like that i die la. u will see me in ngee ann with things jumping all around my head. wa like that i gg..

ok peeps. vote how often i should wash. simply by tagging on my tagboard.

once a day, twice a day(morn and night), once every 2 days, or everytime i bathe.(example.if i bathe 3 times a day all 3 i wash)

ill tele the votes, then the mark burnett will tribe has spoken times.

wokay. had maths test the other day. i think maybe can get full marks if i dun careless.

er. cant wait for my gig.... but i hope ashdown can give a good first impression la. dam scared screw up and shit. not like ive never performed before. cross fingers!

what to post about manxzxzxzzzxzxxxxx..

my new blog songs rock like shit.

oh my laptop really sucksss. spoiling already. or maybe its cause of me. ahah. i never really take proper care. never drop before i think. but i always accidentally take out battery when the laptop is on, without turning on the power supply, then improper shut down and other shit la. damm kim and nana are right, my laptop really might spoil faster than i thought.

i got conned into buying fujitsu. knn.

ok i shall go find something to do now. i miss prime...

ok about that frequent update thingyyy aiyaa hard la. haha. ok i TRY to update on wednesday if not u can claim your free bubble tea by tagging my blog if u dun see a post on wednesday. NIGHT. around this time. which means thursday 12 plus am.

man my high jump skill graph is facing some ups and downs mannnnnn. since i was sick last week. i like lost touch on the technique and stuff. hope to get it back soon! today's training was so exhausting i had no energy to back tuck.

i guess no one wants to come for my gig. or no one has been visiting my blog. except this secret admirer. better not be brenda or robin... or xh.... bloody sluts.

YEAHH acoustic gig in NP soon!!! thanks to chris.

STAR TREK IS AWESOME. but bloody chibong mannnn spent 10bucks on the ticket. GV SUCKS!!!!!!!! so exx....... chibong nabei.

XMEN was even more awesomerrrr. and im not a fan of star trek btw. although i noe hercules actor and proffesor x actor inside.

tomorrow got maths test siolllllllllll. i better ace it. like all learn before in sec school. I MISS UNITY VERY MUCH!!! cant wait to perform there. i think we are not even gonna perform la.... no time to meet up and practice. plus i have not hung out or spoken 2 jerome for 2 weeksss... F man. and i swear its not because of brenda.solely. i dun even have the courage to call him and ask him to eat lunch luh wth. chibong im such a pussy, okgood night time to sleep. need to dry my lovely silky smooth hair. bye good night sluts.

wassup guys. ill take robin's tag into consideration and try to update more often.

anyway. poly life so far is ok.. tight. and ya its not the slack life u dream of during secondary school. every semester is crucial as it affects ur YEAR 3 GPA. which boils down to this, every LESSON is crucial cause ur marks also depend on ur attendance and work and attitude and shiats. thus, poly life is really a big ledrigger mode.

I CAN ALMOST DO A BACK TUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The elation and satisfaction when i dun land on my knees. but still alot of room for improvement. front flip is killing me. freaking hard to get it right.

I LOVE PRIME GYMNASTICS!

guys. gig on 7th june. please message me at 81335990 for details. tix is at 7dollars. yeap.

er. wad else do i have to say. oh ya. turns out that i MAY choose high jump over long dist. but id rather do both than to forsake one. even though long dist is more energy-depleting.

i think imma forget about rock climbing la. mon and wed track. tue and thur rock. then friday prime. sure dam tired one. i wont be able to cope also. arghhh. once again. my passion for rock. destroyed! ): tsk tsk. u cant have everything u want. u cant have everything ur way. chibong..

ok. goodbye peeps.

happy birthday daddy! haha he's in china now. if those china douches noe they will sing for it in that freaking imba china accent.

track and field bonding session today. made new friends again. and i played with laughing gas. OMG.. i was FREAKING skeptical. this senior he was like u wanna try u wanna try? after much persuasion. i tried. but nothing happened cause i didnt breathe into the hankerchief hard and deep enough. but it smelled dam concentrated. like the alcohol u put on ur ear after u pierce. so ya i sniffed the first time. nothing. jus felt VERY VERY DIZZY. VERYYYYY.. like dazed.

then i said eh after track i try again. then i told yi guo about it. then after track he went to try. he laughed like shit.. then i tried also. i managed to. like after 3 times of spraying the earlier 2 times failed. then the third time right. i smiled! smiled then the smile turned to laughing my head was like spinning i was SUPER ROFLING LMAOING LOLING. on the floor. coudnt stand up. i was like woah LLOLLOOL this LLOLLL is TOTALLY COOL!LOLOLL in my head. then i heard in my head. those kind of techno song effects. and that high pitched sound u hear somtimes. immediately i converted from a skeptic to a believer. i tell u.. its dammmmmm freaking funny. and dammmmm bloooodyyyyyy fun to play. ya u will laugh for like 30 secs to a minute. the silent but dam hard laughter. for me i felt dizzy and dazed again luh. like blur and couldnt stand up kinda thing. my legs became weak. so ya ill skip abit more.and i enjoyed the second time also! AHAHHAHAHAhaha dam fun to play. i PROMISE. its dam cool how the thing works. really.

its called ethylcloride its for muscle pain relief. but its also serving as a good laughing gas. ahhaa. its sold at guardian. 12bucks for a canister. go try. and have fun. but I WARN YOU! ITS ADDICTIVE> JUS BE CAREFUL.BEEE REALLY CAREFUL. I DUNNO THE EFFECTS OF OVER DOSAGE.

FIRST DAY OF POLYYYYYYY!!!

okay today was jus horrendous... DAM BLOODY HOT IN THE MORNING OKAY!!!! lessons were a drag. maybe its cause i was sleepy. and ya i fell asleep. woops.. made 2 new buddies. gonna join TRACK,ROCK CLIMBING,DIVING AND CANOE POLO!! but ill stick to 2. mayb rock too if rock and track doesnt clash. canoe is jus go try out and play play. and get that super duper awesome tight fit water sports shirt by adidas. bumped into peeps like vanessa pereira and gacad and kyle and yada yada. haha.

ok blogging super fast. wanna sleep early. TOMORROW I WILL MEET MARILYN (UNLESS SHE SUDDENLY CANNOT) IF NOT I WILL SHAVE MY HEAD. YES! oh shit did i jus say that.

i hope tomorrow wont be a hot day! and er hmm.

ENJOY POLY LIFE EVERYONE!!! LOVE YOU WORHX!

if you run like the wind ill catch up like the fire.

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the uglier it gets the more beautiful the outcome

28/08/92
17(:
God must be everything
music could be the next everything
Has the emotional values of a girl
Often described as weird,random,retarded
BE A GOOD CHRISTIAN
Dedicate my life to music and form my own alternate christian screamo band
I want an AUDI
Have Twin kids of the opposite sex

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Underoath
The downtown fiction
Stereo skyline
i Rival
The friday night boys
The right coast
Ivory line
Asteria
Pensive
Time tells all
The chase
Tonight is goodbye
Holiday parade
Vanna
Can you keep a secret
Fight fair
School boy humour
We are the ocean
You me at six
Closure in moscow
A kidnap in colour
Mae
The record kid
Funeral For A Friend
Hawthorne heights
Matchbook romance
All time low
Chasing victory
Cry of the afflicted
Secondhand serenade
Settings
Haste the day
As i lay dying
Matchbook romance
The human abstract
Rookie of the year
Artist vs poet
Drive like carson
Shorelines end
Honor bright
Paramore
Red car wire
Phone calls from home
This time next year
The july week
Hit the lights
Crashcarburn
Making april
Ellington
Vega under fir
The wedding
A skylit drive
Senses fail
Sky eats airplane
We the kings
Versa emerge
Driver side impact
Rja
Silverstein
There for tomorrow
Our last night
Fireflight
Divided by friday
October nites
The boy and his machine
The maine
Ice nine kills
Cinematic sunrise
Cute is what we aim for
Van atta high

Fadli-sayang,hunneh<3
Erica
Claire
robin
tiffanie!
Nana
Drayco/Taker's best friend(:
Kim
Yaying
Felicia
Farisa
Alfie
Kim tan
marcus
vanessa danker
marilyn
shiwei
steph