you're so intricate

2010-05-20T15:47:00.002+08:00

i hope you kept them, all that i inked down.those 500 odd words, the amateur art and craft. those works, were my blood and tears. those works were done from the bottom of my heart with the utmost sincerity. all for you.

maybe you've thrown them away because you thought it'd help you move on. if that were true, i hope it's something you regret doing because i'll know that they mean something to you now.

but if you havent, then of course im glad. ill give you a nice big long hug if you say hug me. i wanna take you to this special place. at nf. i think you'll find it nice, and maybbeee just a little bit romantic. if you ask me, ill take you there.

we have this undeniable polarity. it is not that big of a deal but it matters to me. ill explain if you bring it up. call it coincidence, but i call it undeniable polarity that thrills me.

ill kiss you if you let me. and whatever happens, WHATEVER happens, ill wait until youre ready.

<3

2010-05-16T23:05:00.002+08:00

rule 1. Leave it to God

rule 2. dont assume = not making an ass out of u and me

rule 3. dont overthink = no retarded conclusions

rule 4. dont pressurize = the vessel wont explode

rule 5. dont force = it wont break

rule 6. be patient = it will come to you

rule 7. let things flow = your boat wont capsize

THESE RULES ARE NOT MEANT TO BE BROKEN!

i shall recite this every single day when i wake up. and before i go to bed.

i tell this to myself every damn day..but i forget them under pressure. why am i so stupiddddddddd. i need to keep drilling this into my head. quickly. it's part of growing up. it's the essential package in a lot of areas in life.

the only things you should force in life, are things you want to force onto yourself, not others. cause who are we to input the unwanted into people whose lives are already so comfortable. God doesnt grant us that kind of power.

2010-05-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

SICK OF EVERY DAMN SCREWED UP EFFING THING IN MY SHIT ASS LOUSY DICK LIFE!!!! I’M EFFING DESPARATE FOR SOME DISTRACTION AND COMFORT RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANNA EFFING RUN AWAY.

HOW, HOW CAN I EFFING EVEN TRY TO FORGOT ABOUT THE ONE PERSON THAT CAN MAKE ME HAPPY. SHE WAS MY ESCAPE, MY PERFECT GETAWAY, SHE WAS MY EVERYTHING, SHE WAS MY SMILE, SHE WAS MY ANGEL THAT BROUGHT ME FUN LAUGHTER PEACE AND JOY LIKE NO OTHER COULD.

ADDING ON TO THIS, IVE LOST COUNT ON HOW MUCH TEARS IVE SHED, AND THEY WERENT FOR NOTHING.

WHY DO I HAVE ONE FLAW TOO MANY, WHY.

WHY DO I WANT THINGS I CANT HAVE.

I’D RATHER SULK AND REGRET EVERY DAMN MISTAKE I MADE EVERY DAMN DAY THAN TO FIND SOMEONE ELSE. BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT I WANT, BECAUSE IVE FOUND WHAT I NEED. AND IM GOING TO WAIT.

I’M IN LOVE WITH YOU

BUT IT DOESNT COUNT FOR SHIT

<3

2010-05-15T01:01:00.002+08:00

i just feel like embracing you everytime. every single time. and then i would whisper in your ear, tell you how i feel about you, and that i mean everything i say, that im here to stay. for as long as you need me. i'd express my love with the words ive been longing for you to hear. ive got this speech all planned out but words may vary when the time comes. and ive got the perfect location to execute what i perceive to be, my most romanctic gesture to anyone ever. (Y) cause you're the only one worth waiting for, worth fighting for, worth dying for. i hope one day, this pathetic fantasy will turn into a beautiful reality. and it'd be more than just a beautiful memory, it'd be the greatest story of my life. by far. already fantasising the scenario(not the sick stuff)makes me happy. (Y) but that doesnt mean it's enough. i guess fantasising about it tonight, will put me to sleep with ease. hehehe. oh how i love sleep. oh im so going to bed a happy boy-man, but also, im going to bed, a happy boy-man who blanketed his fantasy over his reality.

love is patient
love is not jealous

im waiting for the green light. binggggg!!!!

if you think im stupid to be waiting for you, then go ahead, afterall, all those times you called me stupid, im sure to some degree you meant it.

cos i do, hitherto, for all time, (Y) (Y)
until you say please stop. (N) (N)

<3

2010-05-09T20:21:00.006+08:00

i will never push you away

i will always be right behind you

i will stand by you no matter what, even if it hurts me

i will always be on the sidelines, for as long as it takes

until i can call you mine again

until then, i will wake up everyday, with you as my first thought

and go to bed with you as my last thought

ive made up my mind, i wont search for another, cause there really isnt anyone quite like you, or anyone even close.

unless you tell me right in my face, that you dont ever want me, ill continue to harbour strong feelings for you. youre the one, closest to real love, ive ever been.

when you do tell me that, then only will i start searching. i dont care if it pains me now, talking to you normally already eases the pain tremendously. (Y) (Y) (Y) (Y) that's all i need to get me by.

all the others before this, it wasnt love. it was lust. but with you, it's different. i am abosultely sure that it isnt lust. it was true love. i was this close but we couldnt carry through.

just because you are going to walk away, doesnt mean im walking away too. i will ALWAYS be waiting. i've waited for so long just to hear that you like me too, you holding my hand for the first time was the most i could ask for. you dont know how much it meant to me. it made every other intimate act i ever had with my previous ones so miniscule and microscopic. every man's greatest love wish/desire thingy, is to hold the girl of his dreams, to feel the special feeling no other can provide, a feeling so exclusive that he'd do anything to make sure he doesnt lose that feeling. that's just one of the 1000 denominations that define love, to me. oh the things i would do just to have that feeling again. i just teared, would have wept but justin is beside me

i just want you to know that, if you were with me, jealousy would be the least of our problems. cause no1. love is not jealous. no2, i know for certain that if we were together, i am the only one who can place your hand in mine and at that instant, feel as though im on top of the world. (Y) x one million. so there's no reason, absolutely none as to why i should feel jealous. of course i will feel jealous to some extent but i can get over it.

i feel much better everytime i type down all these things. cause i know that somehow you'll be able to read this. i feel much more relieved.. (Y)

you move on without me, cause there is no more we when relationships / whatever we had are over. only you and i. ill be waiting at the point where we first started. re-living the glory days just so that i can put on a smile and face the world.

i only said that we should move on to cover up for my stupidness when i asked you for a second chance. i didnt mean it when i said that we should move on. but i mean it when i say now, that im not moving on. you can if you want to. or we could just sit down and solve this. or not..

im ready, whenever you are, to discuss anything and everything

i promise all ill do is listen, i wont say anything unless you ask me to.

you dont have to fear that i might say something wrong out of impulse or anything, ill just shut up and listen. if i open my mouth, i dont deserve your trust ever again. cause i'd be breaking an important promise

you should be expecting a post, whenever i find everything too overwhelming, if you find that reading my posts isnt doing you good, then dont read. i just need to let everything out, and pretend that youve seen them. the only major lies ive ever told were lies to myself. and also to my grandma and some friends when they ask me how are you, and i say fine. ha.

Jdjdjss

2010-05-09T20:04:00.001+08:00

there is always the bright side

2010-05-06T23:22:00.003+08:00

well look on the bright side, reviewing everythingggggggggggggg. i'd say ive gotten quite far.as compared to last time. so, it's something to be thankful for. blessings like these arent easy to come by, im gonna cherish this for as long as i live. so i guess ill put a smile here. (: havent had a real smile since.. since everything came crashing down.

im not going to ask for another chance anymore, because i cant simply ask of you, what you cannot offer. that is just selfish. cause if you wanted another shot, you would have said so by now.

the more appropriate question should have been, where do we go from here, instead of that impulse bullshit "but that doesnt mean you have to call it quits. etc etc etc."

i should have just stuck to "i just wanna go with the flow" cause that's when you said awww. and when you say awww. it's always something good. it makes me go aww too.

see all this should haves.. i just cant get it right cause im impatient, impatient for change.i used to be a very patient kid. just slap me now. kick me punch me, you can even put me in a cannon and launch me.

if you chance upon this, then goooddddd, if not, let it be the unsaid last words, the words never HEARD or SAID are always the words that MEAN the most. that have the GREATEST EFFECT.

i never said you had to agree with everything i said.

2010-05-05T23:23:00.005+08:00

why.. why am i so impatient. why do i forget so quickly, the words i said that made you happy.
why.. why am i such an idiot.. why... im just so mad at myself. why am i such a destroyer.
why.. really... FREAKING WHY...

im living a life with so much regret now.

all because of one incident, everything began to fall, like the walls of jericho.

it's time i let you fly.
i know you can.
i think it's easier for you cause you told me that you never liked me as much as i did you.
logically speaking..

i sorta know more now.. what can and cannot be said.

rule no1 dont assume

2010-05-02T23:35:00.001+08:00

I AM SORRY.

2010-05-02T23:09:00.003+08:00

i dont know shit...really...

i wish things would stop being so confusing. that everything would just come clean. or at least, all the important details..

cause im receiving unwanted damage, i feel that im being toyed with.

i feel like im just a replacement.

i really dont know what's going on. and it's not easy getting thru this.

im tired of being lost, and misled.

when it comes to love, i learned a very important point.
what hurts the most isnt that it is over, it is when the other has started over with another.

2010-04-19T23:15:00.002+08:00

today, i just learnt that, not only the quiet can cut like knives.

its about time.. i have what i need.. answers.. so.. in any relationship, reciprocation is dire..

i will do likewise..

but just so you know, it freaking hurts..

tomorrow is a brand new day, but the memories remain the same..

thanks for everything, it wasnt much, but ill cherish it all.

when it comes to you, sticks and stones break my bones, your words, they kill.

2010-04-14T15:50:00.003+08:00

every morning, i wake up, the first thing that comes to my mind is you. back then, i sat up in bed with a smile, now, i wish i didnt have to wake up. cause when i think of you, what comes next? the thought that i dont have you in my life, in that kind of way. and there's absolutely nothing i can do about it. i know im not the only with problems, i know you have your fair share of decision making. so pardon me if im whiny and if i keep ranting. and i refuse to move on because, i just cant. but if it's affecting you in the sense that im slowing down your efforts to move on, (if you are trying to move on) then just let me know, cause i will let go.. just say the words.. my heart cant be any more sadder than this. oh wait, yes it can.. whatever makes you happy, im game for that.

no use pouring your feelings into someone's cup when there's a lid on, or when the cup is full. the holder wont appreciate spills.

follow your heart, live it to God, and everything will fall into place.

2010-04-12T17:16:00.001+08:00

because live with you for a year, is clearly not enough..

can i get a likewise for this too?

If I don't make it

2010-04-08T20:26:00.001+08:00

Since diving is known as a high risk sport, I'm going to pretend it's my last day. So I'm going to try to say all that I've been feeling. I'm sry if I will make your life more difficult. But for all you know, you might prefer to hav known than to not know at all.

I just want you to know that, I think I was in love with you. Incase you were wondering, yes, I cried just before typing that. I've never met anyone so beautiful. So beautiful that I don't deserve such divinity. And the only time I felt good enough was when I had a special place in you heart. And the words you said, the things you did to prove it. And now there's nothing left. You are my drive to do everything within my power. You are the reason why I do so many things that I didn't use to do. You are the reason why I man up. You are the reason why I write music. Ive never felt so strongly about anyone before. And I'm glad to say it wasn't a waste.

My intentions were good. But you didn't need them, where we are right now is the evidence. But I don't blame you.

All I want is for you to be happy.
And If you're happy with being friends. Then I'm happy too. Cause at least I can still see you and see you smile.

I crumble at the sight of you. I lose my ability to breathe. I am brought down to my knees. Because you're so stunning.

The first month we had was the best and happiest month of my entire life.

I will not cry. I will not cry. I will not cry. Too late. I will not cry on the mrt. Too late. Thank god there's not many ppl around.

She likes the boy, but she can only love a man.

And a man is what I am not. But you make me the man I'm supposed to become.

You're my favourite girl, I am your foolish boy. Fg and Fb. Stands for more than our own names in the distant past.

I am the butterfly that landed on the most exquisite flower. Butterflies dies before flowers.

I totalled the number of times I shed tears for you : 10

99% emotion 1% water

You're still that rose. Still all that I want in this world. I won't say it anymore. Just bare these in mind. And I'm not changing my mind.

I won't deny that I'm not expecting change. But I also know that you've made up your mind. I'm taking a very big risk here. It's all or nth. Being a man is about being brave. Not being afraid to take risks.

I somehow wish that after saying all this, I don't feel like coming back. Cause I'm afraid of the outcome. But, I'm going to have to anyway. I'll be strong and brave. I'll be a man.

Give me a reason to come home.

2010-04-05T00:58:00.003+08:00

i guess it's over.. really.. the butterfly is emerging.

i just felt as though someone stepped on my heart. literally. the moment i saw it. it's like someone just poured acid on my heart.

im starting to see now.. it's clear as crystal, and much like crystal, my heart shattered.. all over the floor.

better to know and hurt than to know nth forever.

but the thing is they dont even know that i know.

seriously.. what the hell..

more lost than a sheep

2010-04-04T22:50:00.002+08:00

I’ve never ever been this lost. Thrown into such catastrophic turmoil. I really don’t know what to do anymore. Nth else matters anymore. Nth counts for shit. Really really truly damn lost. I just can’t wait for the weekend. Maybe some unexpected wanted change will occur. The timing couldn’t be anymore perfect. Or maybe not. I’m just feeling so screwed up yet at ease. I pray so hard that things will turn out right. I wonder what accident will befall me this weekend.

nothing else matters anymore.
im at a lost for words.
but i am truly grateful for where we are now. it's good. it's as good as it can get.
i'd rather have smth and feel like shit than to have nothing and feel like bigger shit.
so.. ya.. i ve never taken the time i spent with you for granted.
i hate saying goodbye. cause once goodbye is said, it puts an end to happy times.

Seriously, how do you do it

2010-03-31T12:29:00.000+08:00

Tell me, what makes you so damn poweful. It's like the moment you step in and moments after that, everything bad slowly goes away. I feel like life has meaning again. I sleep better. I'm so much more at peace. How do I explain this. Nevertheless, you're still my source of true Happiness. All those times I was having fun, never did I once not wish you were right beside me. Sure,Those fun times were real but none of them worth crying over like the short lived moments I had with you. Those moments were priceless. I never ever took them for granted.

You're my angel, that wraps me around in your majestic wings. And i am healed. You're the sun that rises to break through my dark horizon. And I can live in the day. Youre the beacon of light in my maze. And i struggle my way to you cause safety is where you are. You're the blessing everyone wished they had. And I walk with happiness residing within me. I only have the Lord to thank for this.

2010-03-24T01:29:00.001+08:00

oh you have no idea.. what happens.. but.. i always tell myself, whatever is happening to me, there is always something worse..

nothing makes sense anymore..

im being bashed in all directions, like a great white flopping his meal around and thrashing it and man-handling it.. and yet im not dead. cause there is this hope. that has happened before, i choose to believe it will happen again, someday..

but until then, i suffer in silence.. and you keep me alive.

every beautiful memory, is a stake to the heart. every happy thought.. it's just so damn excruciating..

i really really really really wish that i was told where i went wrong, that way, i could reassure you i would do something abt it.

"lets take it real slow, cause im afraid to lose you" i doubt you remember..how this sentence affected you. i didnt say i wouldnt hurt you, but i promise ill stay through..

whenever youre ready. i promise ill do better, but you must tell me what im doing wrongly, if not, how would i know if im hurting you.if youre willing ill be waiting.

MOVED

2010-03-16T13:42:00.001+08:00

i will no longer be blogging here. my new "blog" can be visited at www.creepinglikecrabs.tumblr.com

17/01/10

2010-01-18T09:20:00.002+08:00

life has never been better. and it's all thanks to you. (:

6/1/10

2010-01-06T11:54:00.000+08:00

It's the first post of the year 2010. And I'm doing it w my iPhone!

Jus realized my blog is beyond reviving.

my life So far:

Had the best day of my life and 2009. On the last day of 2009 w the best girl ever.
2010 will be so exciting. As anxious and excited I am. I'm kinda scared too.

I've learnt Alot from the past few years. I should be fine.

I really can't afford to screw things up.
I've become a man who can proudly say : I'm loving the dream.

I jus hope I don't have to wake up or that the dream will last forever.

I sold myself to the idea that good things come to those who wait. And I'd say that I made the best deal ever.

This time for sure,I'll Noe how to love

21/12/09

2009-12-21T00:49:00.003+08:00

my life so far:

confirmation! woo! it was good. my name is DAVID

and common tests were great. im quite confident i can do well.

band is coming over tomorrow to jam

oh ya, got a drum set in my new home(:

back to dota days again.

there is no use for a blog now that there's twitter.

gymnastics has been alright. improving slowly. its tough mannn

have yet to go out w marilyn for her ice cream! so busyyy. so sorry mal

have yet to watch planet 51 and avatar! ):

imkrcb is exactly wad u think it is.

erm.. recently hoooked on fishville. haha

and GOSSIP GIRL! did i fail to mention.

gonna create new music w ashdown tomorow! ALTERNATE BAND FOR THE WIN!

2009-12-07T14:32:00.003+08:00

oh no not stereo, ready set, a letter to you, boxer and clover, every you, an evening with, tonight alive, live to tell, camera cant lie, show me the skyline, i cant explain it,we are the in crowd

5/12/09

2009-12-05T01:37:00.002+08:00

jus wanna say.... happy birthday to robin.

you will ALWAYS have a place in my heart. one of my best bros ever. until i go army. lol kidding,
thank you for all the laughs, for all the non-stop talking. u really noe how to liven any environment. just dont do the same for a funeral. later the ghost buay song.

erm. xh and jerome's bdays coming up soon too.

common tests coming. SHITTZXZXZX. confirm gg.

gonna watch legend of the seeker now. pretty main character :D wootss

im tired.

isly.

gonna watch new moon later on in the afternoon. absss... ooooo

29/11/09

2009-11-29T14:36:00.002+08:00

common tests are coming. i really dont feel like having commitments such as school. jus wanna concentrate on other things. good thing i only have one examinable module. or maybe 2.

today is just too dam hot. poor penguins and other antartic animals.. ): i feel for them. here we are complaining and we dont have insulation. wad about that! all that thick fur and blubber. its jus so saddening. we should start a campaign. SHAVE THOSE POLAR BEARS! i guess thatll help them cool down. then again theres a chance of u getting mauled to death and becoming cute lil baby bear's desert.

and i jus realised im babbling.

anyway. now's the wrong time to get hooked on gossip girl.

my current attachment just became a detachment that reattached my detached heart.

wad?... ok. i will try my best to study.

i cant help but say.. its nice to know how you truly feel. after all this while.

CHAO OUUSAIII.

ps. i FREAKING HATE BAD ROMANCE BY LADY GAGA

25/11/09

2009-11-25T00:17:00.003+08:00

went back to unity today. miss that place like hell. ): good to see haiman and gang and marilyn.

i thought i was running a fever jus nw.. hmmm..

anyway. began watching 2 new shows. mighty morhpin power rangers series1 the best series ever. and gossip girl.

im actually surprised im watching a chick show. first impression : chuck is douchebag. serena is only the prettiest. dan is so cute. i can relate to him.

gym tomorrow! (: i hope somehow i get a fever, lazy go sch.

semi-exicted to watch gossipgirl tomorrow. oh no... im one of them now..

good night world.

18/11/09

2009-11-18T14:35:00.003+08:00

okay wasssupppppppppp. my laptop is A-OKAY!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO. and tweetdeck is jus the coolest shit!

so... tomorrow all shall be revealed.

hmmm. oh yes.. got lots of school work to do ): tonight i mus chiong alr.

stop waiting for an opportunity, create one.

8/11/09

2009-11-08T22:49:00.001+08:00

i know you're scared. im just as scared as you are. but if you are willing, ill be waiting

7/11/09

2009-11-07T14:29:00.002+08:00

i thought it'd be easier as the day came closer. but i guess i was clearly mistaken. the urges are stronger than ever, feelings deeper than ever.nothing can disguise this endeavour.
desparation will lead to being selfish and that would screw things up when the best moment is jus round the corner..

i need to see you or at least hear you.
time has passed so much that thinking isnt good enough anymore
i cant wait for the day to say.
take my hand lets see what god has in store..

3/11/09

2009-11-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

sup people. reinstated the computer in the new house.. but now my lappy spoil... even after reformatting.

so new house is alright. looks better and better. cant wait for the music room and my DRUM SET!!!!!!!! SHIOK-A-NATHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gonna drum like everyday waaaaaaaaa cant wait manzxzxzxzxx!!!!!!!!!!

ecstatic,euphoric,cloud 9 thats wad u make me.

i realised... everyday i come home... i pangsai.....

and im sick. got the very weird hong gan feeling in my throat, MUS BE NANA and my mother.

25/10//09

2009-10-25T14:58:00.002+08:00

its been 8 days since i moved in to my new house. not too bad i should say.. just fixed the internet.

i havent dota-ed in 8 days ):

school: not bad.. timetable quite good. but i might have to cut my hair.. arghhhh nvm.. and here i thought poly was all about liberty to do whatever you want and stuff. i guess i was wrong. as the fat lady in xiao hai bu ben(i not stupid) says, if i give u all the freedom, u will burst like a balloon..

Luke said to Jared " who are you trying to kid? "

14/10/09

2009-10-14T22:43:00.001+08:00

last few days in my house ):

im soooo gonna miss this house laaaa. so convenient. so sheltered and all..

my new house must walk 5min jus to get to the main road bus stop... super sian. and HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

i gonna carry small umbrella every time alr.

im looking forward to the movie marathons to come. shiok :D

and the drum set!!!!!

and school is starting omggggggggggggg. i dun wannna go to schoollllllll. but then again, there's something to look forward to every morning. KAYA BUTTER BUN WITH TEH PINGGGGG!!!!! shiokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...

ok time to brainstorm on a longshot

7/10/09

2009-10-07T00:51:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to celestine and vanessa.. danker...

celestine: im still sorry about that time.. sorry. but anyway, all the best with u and yy. u and school. pick the right school this time. no matter what, yy will be there. so might i. ok will i.

vanessa: u are a loser.. but nvm, u make up for it somehow. i dunno wad to say for u. really. erm...
thanks for the effort.

2/10/09

2009-10-02T00:15:00.003+08:00

practice makes perfect.

my temper has been becoming worse this week. too much dota. correction, too much losing in dota.

thus, ive made an oath, no dota for a week. or a few days at least until i come to my senses. gosh... games...

tomorrow is my confirmation test. so not ready. but i hope the 5 of us can make it this year. i hope.. pray for us man.

school starting in 2 weeks. o levels coming when? around the same time? or slightly later.

i dun wanna become a monster.

i dunno wad else to do online man.. besides dota. facebook like. nothing leh.

i think i got sore throat coming.

everybody falling sick. kimberley, jerome, grandma and now me.

tomorrow will be a better day.

26/09/09

2009-09-26T01:37:00.002+08:00

shit.. i lost every round of pool.... EVERY SINGLE round!. and i didnt have nasi goreng cina padrik thai. i had.. nasi goreng pataya. then i saw the receipt, the guy put xxxchilli. means no chilli right? then wad the shit.. got like chilli saus or chili sos sprayed in lines all over my pataya.... u tell me wad the hel is the xxx for? if those were the wheel of fortune blanks. xxx = put.

oh well i enjoyed the teh ping. but the condensed milk expanded my stomach. ):

wa today.. i rotted at home. but it was good rotting. gooddd.......

sudden infatuation with anberlin. and alternate music.

and the best band award goes to dear dakota. and best song 2009 is the way she feels by between the trees.

and wHY AM I BLOGGING ABOT THIS SHIT..

when i go nana's house on monday i WILL BUY the imba kaya bread from sheng siong outside... oh yea.. hail orange kaya and fattening butter.

24/09/09

2009-09-24T17:34:00.002+08:00

birthday wishes. hmm.. to vivien tan.

although there is absolutely no chance that u will read this. i jus wanna say, u are a great fren. u are capable of loving someone unconditionally. and u should be thankful for such a wonderful gift. ur other half will be very blessed to have u. all the best in ur life. raise ur self esteem.

to kimberley bruce..

wad can i say. if our friendship was a movie, the genre would be, psychological thriller. but still im thankful for knowing u. youre smart and capable. i hope u realise that. all the best in ur life too.

and to both of u and other olevel students. look at the clock. are u scared? ask urself wad have u done? is it satifactory? sieze every opportunity u have to study. dun regret doing a course or entering a jc u dont like. trust me i have frens who are like that. im sure u have frens like that too. no offence. but ya. dun watch them live a mistake and do nothing about ur own future. its never too late. NEVER. so go kick some GCE butt. :D god bless.

OKAY LOOKS LKE ITS TIME TO GO AL AMEEN FOR SOME SUPER SHIOK TEH PING AND NASI GORENG CINA PADRIK THAI!!! AND THEN SOME POOL! I HOPE TODAY IS A GOOD POOL DAY! I DN WANNA BE OFF-FORM LIKE THE OTHER DAY...SUPER DU LAN!!!

HEROES season 5 EPI 3!!!!!!!!! FASTER COME OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!@#!_)(*&^%$#@

15/09/09

2009-09-15T20:44:00.002+08:00

yeah back from tioman island! for my first dive trip!!!! shiokkkkk.

it was a good experience. but i expected abit more. maybe it's the location. i hope that i can get to dive at an even better location next time. i still havent changed my disgust for salt water but i certainly have become more accustomed to the overwhelming taste of it in my mouth. i got stung by a jellyfish!!! the photos are on my facebook.

ive decided to put back my tagboard, cause tags are the only factor that lets me know that people actually do come to this god-forsaken blog.

im in love with smallville. i hate how clark cant tell lana.. so much....... the writer complicates things to ensure that he has the fans' hearts dying to know if lana will ever find out. this is wad i call a goodddddd series! just like heroes. imba...

mannnn purevolume got one too many bands alr. i dunno how to get all those songs sia..

cant wait for next dive trip. i confirm mus buy my own fins and mask and suit alr. uncomfortable sia..

29/08/92

2009-08-29T02:35:00.002+08:00

i thought i'd be happy to blog about today. but i guess the only thing im happy about today is the nice cool cloudy weather the lord has blessed me with.

i guess birthdays are getting worse and worse every year. but cant blame my frens. in singapore.. u cant have fun without money, there's not much to do, that i noe off. and doesnt mean u find something to do, everyone would want. but hey, im the bday boy. i do wad i want. but if all my frens dun like it, then ill do it alone? so who said bday is ur special day.

sec2 i got detention for my bday, sec3 i spent it playing dota, which was not too bad. sec4 more dota and swimming? this year, LAN again, but at least ate at seoul and movie. nothing special huh. i guess... it's meant to be. i feel special everyday but on the one day im supposed to feel even more special and enjoy the day more, it doesnt happen.

i guess i learnt that i shouldnt expect too much for my 18TH bday. but who noes. ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN.

and sadly, i didnt get many bday messages until robin had to conspire with 4/8 to mass message me. oh well. better than nothing. if u dun bother/cant rmb, dun dream about being remembered. but at least the messages were sincere i miss 4/8 so much, i wish we all went poly together. but we have to move on, cause the wheel of time is always rolling, we cant get too stuck in the past. if not the sentences "life is all about taking risks" "one life, live it" will be nothing more than wad they are. words.

why the hell do i sound so emo on my freaking bday. i hope tomorrow will be a super shiok day. drinking and doing retarded things with my new found frens / all time bros.

ok i have to go sleep now. tomorrow will be a better day a better celebration.

19/08/09

2009-08-19T21:26:00.002+08:00

im updating my blog at the wrong time-.-. my exam is in 2days!. but fret not jared, youre ready.

okay. my bday is coming in 2weeks and 2 days..... this year's came the fastest... idk wad to expect on my bday, i jus want to enjoy and celebrate it with my different groups of frens. all on different days la obviously. but i guess bday wishes are enough.

erm i got a gig this sat... i dun expect much.. i think it's gonna be quite lousy. i havent sung and played bass in a long time. and im forced to get the touch back in like wad 2 jamming sessions..... clearly a gg. but im sureeeee we'll pull through. its all up to me to keep up the vocals.

ok im kinda in love with domokun. the japanese cute brown monster thing, i believe it's the only stuff toy thingy taht guys will like. or fancy. the pasa malam got sell leh.. but all fake one. ahhaa.

erm... prime has been great. i think im improving. but hard to progress when lesson is oly once a week.

the pasa malam blasting techno... now blasting billie jean.. dam loud la.but i miss the bouncy rides thing.

im just a 17 year old boy..

i wonder wad presents im gonna get this year. but the most amazing gift will be something from the heart. i jus want my bros to be there to have fun with me. and of course i wanna spend a day with brenda too.

i remember when i was sec2, i had detention on my bday.. but it was all worth it..(:

ok. im going to indulge in an old time habit. DEE OH TEE EH! bye bye. muarckssazxz

2/08/09

2009-08-02T20:38:00.002+08:00

ok dammmm long never update.

so far:

my maid's back. today is justin's bday. my elder bro's bday was on friday.

im growing stronger. i need to start studying eng mech.

harry potter was cool. im pretty unskeptical about it la. people say wad sucks all. only about love, not much magic. i mean come on, there's only so much the director can do.

i cant wait for SPIDERMAN 4 and 5. AQUAMAN, IRONMAN 2, AVATAR THE LAST AIR BENDER, 7th and 8th HARRY POTTER, and still got wad ah.. GI JOE all those shit la.

but i jus wanna see my spiderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!! and AANG!!!!!

i wanna gig with ashdownnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.....

i wan ASHDOWN EP!!!

i got mp3! haha. borrowed from nick. and my bday is in 26DAYSSSS WEEEE

every year passes by faster and faster.

I WAN DIVE TRIPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!! I WAN MY LICENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm. wad else. my hair, i haven cut...

err. my dad says if i score majority a's for my exam, he'll get me iphone 3G. but. i dun really need such things... i just want my drumset....

5/07/09

2009-07-05T21:33:00.001+08:00

okay. wad to blog about.

oh ya common tests.

all A one B. and the b is a math... wthhh... cant believe i can get b for something ive been studying for 2years... i got 78. but in poly 80 then is A. ):

er. received 2 warning letters from NP about skipping lessons. haha. wont skip again mannnxzx.

i wan dive license!

i love gym more and more.

i wan round deltoids and spartan abs.

i dun like 8am school.

i love kaya butter bun set.

21/6/09

2009-06-21T01:07:00.002+08:00

2 more months to my 17th brithday!! i remember i said this last year too. hahah when i was turning 16 luh.

mannnn. im still getting labeled as some 20year old douche. or at least 18..

cause.. IM JUST TOO BUFFFF!!! no la kiddin kiddin.

my gig was great. recording ep will be expensive.

dive camp was awesome cant wait for dive trip.

i hate efficiency of commitee....

i can lick my fringe, sideburns, back. steadyy.

peace out.

08/06/09

2009-06-08T00:03:00.003+08:00

if love is suffering then i love being in love.

i caught a flu bugg... nooooooooooo.

the imprompto performance in unity was a big le drigger.

the weather SUCKS BALLS.

stupid woodlands library so dusty.

i wan double choc frappe.

monsters vs aliens is a dam cute show.

good night.

19/5/09

2009-05-19T23:11:00.001+08:00

wassup people. man i have to shit dammmm bloooddyyy badly now. but i couldnt move away from the com cause i was in a dota game. yeah i aced my math test. freaking careless mistakes... 73 divided by 33 i put 22. something...-.- like that 2 marks. then one more mark careless. if not can full marks siallllll chibong....

MY MATH LECTURER TRICEP DAM BIG SIA!! i got held back and told at by her today after class for saying that. HAHA! oh well.

MAPLEHHHH!!!!!

went to study with yi guo at yew tee mac. saw marilyn that lil cutie.

OK!! BIG ANNOUNCEMENT!! MY GIG HAS BEEN CHANGED FROM THE 7TH JUNE TO 13TH JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

ok need to shit dammm badly now.....byebye.

should i cancel hybrid concession?!?!??!!?!??!

16/5/09

2009-05-16T01:32:00.002+08:00

ok, a mini debate over the washing of hair.

testimonies of my peers state that washing hair everyday or more than once a day is not so good. the hair will spoil, will drop faster, and stuff. i dunno. i jus tried not washing jus now. but i went to prime, hair sure dirty and stuff. i scared i wake up with itchy head tomorrow, and wad if there is a kutu on my scalp now, then overnight like breed a million in my pillow, then like that i die la. u will see me in ngee ann with things jumping all around my head. wa like that i gg..

ok peeps. vote how often i should wash. simply by tagging on my tagboard.

once a day, twice a day(morn and night), once every 2 days, or everytime i bathe.(example.if i bathe 3 times a day all 3 i wash)

ill tele the votes, then the mark burnett will tribe has spoken times.

14/5/09

2009-05-14T20:11:00.002+08:00

wokay. had maths test the other day. i think maybe can get full marks if i dun careless.

er. cant wait for my gig.... but i hope ashdown can give a good first impression la. dam scared screw up and shit. not like ive never performed before. cross fingers!

what to post about manxzxzxzzzxzxxxxx..

my new blog songs rock like shit.

oh my laptop really sucksss. spoiling already. or maybe its cause of me. ahah. i never really take proper care. never drop before i think. but i always accidentally take out battery when the laptop is on, without turning on the power supply, then improper shut down and other shit la. damm kim and nana are right, my laptop really might spoil faster than i thought.

i got conned into buying fujitsu. knn.

ok i shall go find something to do now. i miss prime...

12/5/09

2009-05-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

ok about that frequent update thingyyy aiyaa hard la. haha. ok i TRY to update on wednesday if not u can claim your free bubble tea by tagging my blog if u dun see a post on wednesday. NIGHT. around this time. which means thursday 12 plus am.

man my high jump skill graph is facing some ups and downs mannnnnn. since i was sick last week. i like lost touch on the technique and stuff. hope to get it back soon! today's training was so exhausting i had no energy to back tuck.

i guess no one wants to come for my gig. or no one has been visiting my blog. except this secret admirer. better not be brenda or robin... or xh.... bloody sluts.

YEAHH acoustic gig in NP soon!!! thanks to chris.

STAR TREK IS AWESOME. but bloody chibong mannnn spent 10bucks on the ticket. GV SUCKS!!!!!!!! so exx....... chibong nabei.

XMEN was even more awesomerrrr. and im not a fan of star trek btw. although i noe hercules actor and proffesor x actor inside.

tomorrow got maths test siolllllllllll. i better ace it. like all learn before in sec school. I MISS UNITY VERY MUCH!!! cant wait to perform there. i think we are not even gonna perform la.... no time to meet up and practice. plus i have not hung out or spoken 2 jerome for 2 weeksss... F man. and i swear its not because of brenda.solely. i dun even have the courage to call him and ask him to eat lunch luh wth. chibong im such a pussy, okgood night time to sleep. need to dry my lovely silky smooth hair. bye good night sluts.

2/5/09

2009-05-02T23:22:00.002+08:00

wassup guys. ill take robin's tag into consideration and try to update more often.

anyway. poly life so far is ok.. tight. and ya its not the slack life u dream of during secondary school. every semester is crucial as it affects ur YEAR 3 GPA. which boils down to this, every LESSON is crucial cause ur marks also depend on ur attendance and work and attitude and shiats. thus, poly life is really a big ledrigger mode.

I CAN ALMOST DO A BACK TUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The elation and satisfaction when i dun land on my knees. but still alot of room for improvement. front flip is killing me. freaking hard to get it right.

I LOVE PRIME GYMNASTICS!

guys. gig on 7th june. please message me at 81335990 for details. tix is at 7dollars. yeap.

er. wad else do i have to say. oh ya. turns out that i MAY choose high jump over long dist. but id rather do both than to forsake one. even though long dist is more energy-depleting.

i think imma forget about rock climbing la. mon and wed track. tue and thur rock. then friday prime. sure dam tired one. i wont be able to cope also. arghhh. once again. my passion for rock. destroyed! ): tsk tsk. u cant have everything u want. u cant have everything ur way. chibong..

ok. goodbye peeps.

22/4/09

2009-04-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

happy birthday daddy! haha he's in china now. if those china douches noe they will sing for it in that freaking imba china accent.

track and field bonding session today. made new friends again. and i played with laughing gas. OMG.. i was FREAKING skeptical. this senior he was like u wanna try u wanna try? after much persuasion. i tried. but nothing happened cause i didnt breathe into the hankerchief hard and deep enough. but it smelled dam concentrated. like the alcohol u put on ur ear after u pierce. so ya i sniffed the first time. nothing. jus felt VERY VERY DIZZY. VERYYYYY.. like dazed.

then i said eh after track i try again. then i told yi guo about it. then after track he went to try. he laughed like shit.. then i tried also. i managed to. like after 3 times of spraying the earlier 2 times failed. then the third time right. i smiled! smiled then the smile turned to laughing my head was like spinning i was SUPER ROFLING LMAOING LOLING. on the floor. coudnt stand up. i was like woah LLOLLOOL this LLOLLL is TOTALLY COOL!LOLOLL in my head. then i heard in my head. those kind of techno song effects. and that high pitched sound u hear somtimes. immediately i converted from a skeptic to a believer. i tell u.. its dammmmmm freaking funny. and dammmmm bloooodyyyyyy fun to play. ya u will laugh for like 30 secs to a minute. the silent but dam hard laughter. for me i felt dizzy and dazed again luh. like blur and couldnt stand up kinda thing. my legs became weak. so ya ill skip abit more.and i enjoyed the second time also! AHAHHAHAHAhaha dam fun to play. i PROMISE. its dam cool how the thing works. really.

its called ethylcloride its for muscle pain relief. but its also serving as a good laughing gas. ahhaa. its sold at guardian. 12bucks for a canister. go try. and have fun. but I WARN YOU! ITS ADDICTIVE> JUS BE CAREFUL.BEEE REALLY CAREFUL. I DUNNO THE EFFECTS OF OVER DOSAGE.

20/04/09

2009-04-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

FIRST DAY OF POLYYYYYYY!!!

okay today was jus horrendous... DAM BLOODY HOT IN THE MORNING OKAY!!!! lessons were a drag. maybe its cause i was sleepy. and ya i fell asleep. woops.. made 2 new buddies. gonna join TRACK,ROCK CLIMBING,DIVING AND CANOE POLO!! but ill stick to 2. mayb rock too if rock and track doesnt clash. canoe is jus go try out and play play. and get that super duper awesome tight fit water sports shirt by adidas. bumped into peeps like vanessa pereira and gacad and kyle and yada yada. haha.

ok blogging super fast. wanna sleep early. TOMORROW I WILL MEET MARILYN (UNLESS SHE SUDDENLY CANNOT) IF NOT I WILL SHAVE MY HEAD. YES! oh shit did i jus say that.

i hope tomorrow wont be a hot day! and er hmm.

ENJOY POLY LIFE EVERYONE!!! LOVE YOU WORHX!

18/4/09

2009-04-18T01:45:00.002+08:00

RAHHHHHH!!!!!

school is startinggggggggggggg.): man i hope i get to be in the same class as yi guo. and hopefully cca. that way, i wont lose my good buddy(: and about jeromee....... harder to meet up since he's in business now.. ahhhhhh. sucky shit la.

man it seems that either no one is reading my blog, or that no one gives a shit about prime. DAMN ALL OF YOU!!! DAMN YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no la kiddin. oh well. your lost.

everyone should go get a bottle of snapple. the real fact underneath the cap is dammmm interesting. but the drink is kinda ex =/

ok need to sleep soon. meeting brenda the louser tomorrow for lunch at this new and hot place that is appearing like everywhere, xin wang hong kong cafe. chibong...

16/04/09

2009-04-16T01:12:00.002+08:00

pardon my rude absence.

okay. lets see. i have school everyday.. i think everyone also. the breaks suck!!! but i like tuesday and thursday. 9-12 and 8-12 respectively. not bad.

had INCA bbq today at aqilah's house. woodgrove condo. ZHEN ME QIAO BA!!!! like opposite my church please. well i knew that before alr la. YEAHHHHHHHHH i can do a proper front tuck!!! into the pool. PLUS A BACK TUCK TOOOO!O!O!O!O!O!O!O!O! YEAHHH!!! THANK YOU PRIME!!!!

IF YOU'RE NOT SINCERELY READING MY POST! AT LEAST READ THE FOLLOWING PART!!!!!!!!!!

okay i shall advertise prime here. prime gymnastics club. located at toa payoh. teaches gymnastics, tricking, bboy-ing, and xma(x-treme martial arts.) thanks to prime one of my dreams is coming true!!! that is to learn flips!! yeah. the lessons are every friday night. 8pm to 11pm. the lesson price has increased due to lack of members. but i pay $32 a month. yeap. the coach is like 19 so dun have to feel inferior and stuff. he's really nice.and short! haha. but heeeeee goodddddddd...... so ya interested please contact me at 81335990. and ill tell coachy. guys and girls are welcomed. the place is not very huge but the equipment is coolllll. theres a sponge pit which my friends and i play in from like 10pm to 11pm. so ya. please JOIN!! and we can flip happily ever after. together.

okay off to bed!! need to go brenda's house at 10am.. she'll kill me if i oversleep againnnnnnnn. teehee(:

1/04/09

2009-04-01T23:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAYYYYYY!!

i got pranked 3 timesss............. by brenda and xing han..

i cut my hair!! fo shizzle!!! its shorter and has more shape. best hair cut of my life. definitely going back there again. finally i found a lady who gives satisfactory hair cuts.

omg the food in np right... i love it more and more each time i eat there la.

nearing the end of the holidays. OH SHITTTT MY PIANO AND DRUM LESSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KANINAAAAAAAAAAAA

28/03/09

2009-03-28T23:07:00.002+08:00

well i hope everyone played their part in supporting earth hour!!! please say u guys did.

sports camp vs freshmen orientation camp.

overall sports camp was better. it was more organised.it was a great experience,trying out the different ccas, the games were fun, the food was excelllent despite repitions in the kind of food, the whole camp commitee and group leaders and stuff were all super enthu and had good morale. the camp people were funny, they sure can shuffle and tech-tonik well.there was this other guy named jared too, he was a helper in camp. and when he found out we both shared the same name, he got real pissed, i was pissed too. there is something about jareds whereby we dun fancy another jared being 10feet away from each other. its like all jareds feel that their name is soooo special that 2 can never be at the same place at any time. and if that happens its like north and north poles. the name loses it's specialness. and u become like some jack or some gabriel or some other common name dude. this was my theory, prooved in sports camp, in np. but i guess im ok with it now. i mean he is cool and funny and kinda abit like me la. from wad ive seen.

foc....already i initially didnt wanna go because of wad sports camp people said. 2hours learning mass dance or 2 hours dragonboat? of coures the latter. so ya and I DONT DANCE. but in the end i decided to give it a shot. so the first day alr like i could tell that the camp wasnt very organised. a distinct difference between each camps' group leaders (GLs), sports camp one better. so i fell abit ill on the second day, and i had to book out cause i had an appointment. but im glad that i came back for campfire night. the skits were awesome, better than sports camp. and plus. PLUS!! there was a super duper awesome disco!!! hot night was its name. at 10pm we went like clubbing in the media block. and u noe i dun dance, but i was like WTHECK poly alr. so jus CHIONG AHHHHHH. and it was dam fun i tell u. my throat became so parched i grabbed some random pink bottle on the floor. i THINK it was my frens la, i remember the design. THINK. so ya. clubbinggggggg.(: wa now idk if i still garang enough to dance in church or not. so ya thats something i LOVE about foc.

okay thats it. call me foolish.

15/03/09

2009-03-15T00:46:00.002+08:00

supposed to be for 10th march.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA!! though the probability of u reading this is 12/100. or mayb 1/100.
i jus wanna say.. thanks for the decade of interesting and exciting friendship(: i love u. and u are on the top 5 dun-wanna-lose-people list. thanks for everything and i mean everything.youre the best female friend i ever have and ever will have. ill keep it short and sweet. so ya. god bless us(;

to thaslim and ahmad. firstly, begum.. for 2 years u were my classmate buddy(: it was always a joy sitting beside u. alwayssss. we'd have so much fun together. so much mischief so much bonding(: it was sad we had to split up. but even so, we still hold each other dear to each of our hearts.i thank u for all the help and all the joy youve brought into my 2 years. i noe we will always keep in touch, love u begum

and ahmad, the voice of velvet's rose. i always enjoy making u laugh and jokin with u. by the way, u owe me a bk meal... yup ur over-formality makes u stand out in the crowd, thats a REAL singer's job, to get people's attention so that u can really connect with the audience, anyway its a bummer that u left the band..... now things will be alot tougher, either one of us has to sing and play. i jus hope that nothing changes between us, no hard feelings, no tension all.so ya ill see you around bro(:

ok good night.i think i might be coming down with something.

14/03/09

2009-03-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

NEW LAPPY!(:

so i bought a new fujitsu. kinda laggy.. maybe i ran too many things at a go. this is afterall jus a mere laptop. yup i didnt get lenovo cause its made in china, acer cause it jus sucks, fujitsu was the only appealing one left. somemore this is made in japan(:

but i still hate the japs for invading. the torture and agony.... when u really imagine a scenario right, your soul jus crumbles la... so poor thing those people. like wtshit man. those douche japs. but i lik their FOOD!!!!(:

so ya going to jerome's church tomorrow. again... maybe ill do it every week now(:

err.. i guess its time for a new luke chapter.

bloody shit. i lost the latest chapter number. nvm.

so ya i am luke. random name.

i am having trouble being a good friend lately. i remembered last year i prayed that god would teach me to become a better friend. i think i did. but this year. a new obstacle harder and more ominous than ever before. i dunno wad to do with my friendships!!! so lost. i dun wanna hurt anyone. id rather hurt myself than to hurt them. ahhh ill continue this another time..

9/3/09

2009-03-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

direct sales officer... DSO...

suckernathan chibong hong gan.. 2nd day on the job. for two nights running han guo gets the only and last customer of the night..... wtshit man.. so taico. and both 2nd floor. so i need to open up tributaries and channels to increase my income.

here goes:

think cable tv is too expensive? well consider yourself blessed cause for less then $20/month u can enjoy 20-25 channels for a period of 12months. this promotion emphasises on the 50% discount that u cant find any where else, be it a starhub shop or those MRT promoters. the usual price is about 30plus, so if u noe math. the price ive mentioned above is not a scam. GST and rental fee (around $4) is already calculated. the promotion has 3 packages, it may sound racist but there is one for each specific ethnic group, mandarin people are given VV drama, malays are given sensai, indians will have vijay.

there are 7 groups of channels, lifestyle, education, entertainment, chinese infotain, chinese entertain, world news and kids. you can choose 3 out of these 7. your chosen groups are also interchangeable for free. but please do so at the start of each month's billing cycle. call 1633 to do so. each group has about 4-6 channels. so multiply by 3, adding 5 free international channels, and your preset channel - vv drama, sensai or vijay. that is around minimum 18 channels for less than 20 dollars. one channel = ~ $1

so ya thats about the jist/geist/ dunno, of it. any further enquires, please call me at 81335990(: bye bye.

7/3/09

2009-03-07T01:23:00.002+08:00

MOHAMMAD HAPPYY!!!!!!! HAHHAHAHAHA LOL LMAO ROFL

harpreet....

oh kay............. IM SUPER DUPER DUPER ULTRA MEGA HYPER UBER HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN DO A FRONT TUCK NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a thousand smiles baby........................................................

ok. i guess i have to remove that emo post. as promised. dam. yi guo won.

btw the new version of your call. is super nice(: im gonna load the vid nowwww.

oh yes. be sure to check my facebook. got vids of me doing FLIPS!!!! and some fun random shit in the sponge pit.. trust the sponge baby trust the sponge.

jerome decided to spontaneously join us. he is doing okay i guess. like how i was during first lesson. im sure he'll get it(: ill help out. yup. no more landing on the back anymore. into the pool. its a FULL tuck leong. i mean FULL tuck and a nice landing.

im loving the way u shake ur ass.

finally got my poly letter. i got 2! wtshit... post office was late. gee. kinda reminds me of myself.

push is a cool movie. but we went in a few mins late. the epilogue of the show? or issit the, i dunno what term la. prelogue ah i dunno wad la. yi guo help me.

oh yes. ALMOST had another injury. han guo was helping me out of the sponge pit. so we grabbed each others' hands. he almost SNAPPED my thumb. i could feel the bone almost ejecting out. i screamed WHAT THE FUCK! yeahhh i said wtf.. i was freaking scared ok.. i couldnt hold back. it was a very frightening experience... but other than that. no injuries today. my thumb is normal too(:

MARILYN!!! I WANNA EAT LUNCH WITH YOU!!!!! ): i miss u. u and ur dumb o levels... stupid study...... then now we cant even talk often.. but oh well. ill be understanding. i dun wanna screw up ur future over a lunch appointment. just noe that im waiting(:

and i still wanna throw u.

alright i guess i should go bathe...tomorrow im going to church of singapore bukit timah. IM GOING TO CONVERT TO A CHARISMATIC!!! no la. just kidding.

DRAGONBALL!!!!!! 5 DAYS!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im getting impatient!!!! I WANNA WATCH!! ill go drool over the trailer now. see ya guys.

lurrbx euux. tankx fworr rEadding worrhxz! >.<

2/3/09

2009-03-02T00:05:00.002+08:00

DRAGONBALL IS COMING OUT IN 10 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH OMGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE MOMENT OF TRUTH. MY DREAMS HAVE COME TRUE!!! A REAL DRAGONBALL MOVIE!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SO HAPPY I CAN EAT A BUG!!! okay no that'll never happen.

anyway. adding on to my flips lesson post. this guy said yi guo and i look like 20years old. WTH!!! i look so old meh. well thats good la in a way. and i sure dun act 20. i act. 11. (:

oh yes. i got a new cpu. bloody big imba shit. the graphic card is like tissue box length. and its 4GB ram.time to enjoy gaming like ive never experienced before.

im most probably gonna shift to a terrace or a semi-detached. ): so sad. far from peeps. i hope i move to woodlands. at least not so bad. or bukit timah.

erica's bday party was fun, only towards the end when we played foozball. hahhaha. elsa, is an amazing girl. she rocks at sports. i like sporty girls(: elsa and erica are sisters btw. yup. and indonesian food tastes kinda cool. wait who am i to comment. i only ate chicken,rice and poured some unknown flavour soup onto my rice to soggy-fy it. i mean waterlog it.

and we sucked helium again(:

F man. i thought of 3 lines of lyrics during church. and i forgot ALL!

AHHHH. love life. suckssssssssssssssss

28/02/09

2009-02-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

THE LAST DAY OF FERB-UARY! haha.

so ya. ytd flip lesson again. im am elated, overjoyed, ecstatic. i DID A PROPER FRONT FLIP! not on ground la. still abit more to go then can do on ground but im getting there. and it seems that ive gotten a new injury.an abrasion patch on my left palm. last week was blister. next week, i wonder what. and my body scrub right is the seaweed one. so have abit of salt content. when my abrasion touched it, i was immobilized completely. i darent scream to transit the pain. cause my mum was sleeping. i had to hold it in. and the abrasion turned from red to white. seriousssss...... it was excruciating. guess im a pussy..-.-

hmm auditions tomorrow!!! i hope the bass guitar works. if not im totally screwed. please god. help me out here!!

i look forward to every friday of the week. my vessel and medium to becoming a flipster.

things to do to marilyn one day:
1. squeeze her dam tight
2. throw her. be it into a pool or sea.
3. do wrestling moves on her.

ok she aint a guy so i cant be too rough. =/

i love my new blog songs. from 1 to 5. super shiok. regarding no.1 and no.3. go to youtube type buffalax. and you'll see what im talking about.

okay off to dota now. bye peeps. take care. muarrckxzz

morbid life part 2

2009-02-21T00:19:00.004+08:00

i just realised my blogskin doesnt show the title of my posts. so ill put it down.

MORBID LIFE PART 2. part 2 cause sec3 or 2 my url was my-morbid-life.blogspot.com

hello everyone. lets review what ive learnt over the past unfruitful 17 years of my mediocre life.

im gonna list down the things i noe how to do:
drums
bass
guitar
sing
scream
parkour
dota
world of warcraft
badminton
soccer
softball
swimming
rock-climbing
flips
rollerblade
ice skate
sports u learn during P.E
fitness
taekwondo
errr classical dancing
studies
running

now lets list down how many of these things im actually good at:

scream
rock-climbing
softball? i wouldnt consider myself excellent either

there. 17years. what i have achieved.

im not even good with people.
not a party animal.
not good at cheering people up.
not good at socialising.
not good at starting convos.
just not good anything.
completely,utterly,regretfully 100% useless.

and if there is one thing im good at. its that im the best jack of all traits.the best master of none.
what the shit is wrong with me.i need eye-openers.i need drive,will power,self-esteem,determination,morale,persistancy.i need change.i need stepping stones i need people to guide me to the first stepping stone. i need people to guide me to guide me to life up my feet.i cant do anything on my own.just so helpless.such a burden and curse to myself.

and even if people try to cheer me up by saying no la u are good at this and this and that and etc. its just no use. i wanna be good at the things that im not,or that im trying to be at.but i cant.and that includes EVERYTHING i know.

can anyone even uderstand or empathize with me? or am i just the only one feeling this way. i dunno what i need to do. and the worst part is, IM NOT EVEN A GOOD CHRISTIAN. i do not please GOD.

im am haning from a cliff. but there's no one to pull me up cause i myself already cant. so am i gonna be a jack for life? i dont have the fire to give it my best. everything i do, i dun give 100%
let's face it.i dont think im gonna find an answer any sooner.

i may even stop trying to do anything at one point.and just be a loser,staying home all day and everyday and just play dota, and some other games.ill grow mega fat.deteriorate my health.get diabetes at 18 years old.get brain cancer while having diabetes.forget about going for health checkups.eat alot of maggee mee and sweets and chocolates and chips while gaming.grow bald by 19.reach terminal by 19and a half.live in a big shell.get serious asthma and nature-borne diseases.die at 20.full of utmost regret and shame.or why dont i jus die of leprosy.slow and agonising.

i still live and believe in this reverse-motto.and im convinced. : i never get things right the first time, i may fail again the second time, i might stop trying on the third time. i will forget about the fourth time.just like luke. cause I AM Luke.

cause im just too much of a taker, ang kang foo, one million ketupat, hong gan flaygon, tuts my barreh, son of sun, benny lava who fought a barber man and DIED.

ok ill make yi guo a deal. if i can master front tuck(lay-manly known as front flip). in one month. ill remove this post. but i guess he'll just have to wait 7 YEARS! for me to learn that.oh yes my reason for this long and dreadful post is cause today i had my first flips lesson at toa payoh gym.its a really cool gym. got all the props u need to learn gymnastics and stuff.and today we learnt the front tuck EXCEPT FOR ME!!!(: so ya i couldnt take being stuck half-way at things anymore. so thats y i decided to become emo again.

14/02/08

2009-02-14T02:29:00.002+08:00

ok so rmb that time i blogged about how i slept and 5 or 6am playing facebook with yi guo. this time right it is 6AM. and we did something super duper ultra hyper mega retarded. u noe now youtube got the audio preview for ur comments right? ya i think u get the idea. HAHAHAHAAAHAHAHA OMG!^@#^@& its the funniest shit THIS YEAR. we type alot of retarded thigns like hokkien vulgar and all. DAM!!!!!! BLOODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!. got one right. i didnt expect it to be so funny. he typed. hahahahahhahaha lololololololol--- alot more than this la.then i literally fell of my chair and began ROFL-ing. omg. then we were like why are we laughing at senseless things in the middle of the night. so ya it was a dam fun stay over. but i was dam lethargic when i woke up.-.-

i thought yi guo music!(:

happy valentine's day everybody. for the couples. please dont let v day the only day to make ur girl special,its just insincere. but if u make her feel special everyday and even more spec on vday, then i say u are a good bf. so ya cheers to all couples.

as for those who secretly admire girls/guys. i say all the best to u. may u weave ur way right into her heart and come clean before her.

as for those lonely singles. tomorrow at tampines are there is a parkour jam with the singapore parkour group. its titled pk jam for lonely singles. so ya if u GUYS are interested, 330pm. see u there. im going(: cause im a lonely single): how contradictive. i smell then i frown.

good night everyone.

no matter how fast you are, you'll never be able to catch up with time.

5/02/09

2009-02-05T02:57:00.002+08:00

yo peeps. as u can see. my blog template has undergone a major overhaul, for the better. althought there still is a slight problem. a big gap. but it's so that i can fit my playlist. so it took danny(IT expert in the making in NYP) and i- interested in IT but didnt put it in any of my poly choices, to alter the template and stuff. the font colour, is inevitably unchangeable. so ya. as ive said before, i shall reiterate. PLEASE HIGHLIGHT THE POSTS IF U HAVE TROUBLE READING.

so how's my life? okay i guess. nth much.

pending plans prior to poly life:

1. take up piano again
2. take up drums again
3. get a drum set
4. get a bass

so ya i bought my world of warcraft alr. FREAKING pissed. the bloody monsters keep killing me, i have to walk dam far jus to get to my corpse so that they will allow me to press resurrect.

yeah i went to the gym ytd. feel so hulk-ish now.

my love life is embroiled right now.

i jus downloaded skype. kinda cool. but jerome doesnt have a webcam, only got mic. STUPID SHIT.but we use it for dota purposes.

ok, its time to turn in.

my mistakes are gold

29/01/09

2009-01-29T01:48:00.002+08:00

OKAY so since claire insisted. ive changed my blog skin. but.. some things are really wrong. IF U ARE FINDING THIS HARD TO READ. HIGHLIGHT IT.

as u can see. i have a crisis here. hoping that danny can help me. or mayb someone who has a solution. please give me a call. much appreciated.

happy NIUUUUUUUUU year everyone. -.-

my mum brought back this pack of kit kat. FROM ENGLAND. not from malaysia. u compare right. can really differentiate between the 2. obviously the england one is much shioker. got 29 bars. but only the 2strips one. not the kit kat chunky or the 4strips one. sad): but still gooddddddd....

malaysia kit kat like kanasai man. not nice. chapalangness. to the gerga.

I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN IT. IN POLY!!!!

24/01/09

2009-01-24T19:56:00.002+08:00

oh the dance with me song in my playlist very nice.

YOU NOE WHY I AM HAPPY?!?!?!?!?!?? CAUSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

my maid and my aunty said that i grew more muscular!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
dance with me now!!

yeaa finally my tiring and pain-staking attempts to make my hand muscles bigger have succeeded.(: im so gay right now.

just had reunion dinner. steamboatanathan

cashflow starts in 2 days(:

23/01/09 trouble with the f word

2009-01-23T21:23:00.004+08:00

i jus feel like spamming the f word so much....... FFF FFFF FEF DASFASDFSD HYJOJGOJOIAJG.
but im not angry or anything. jus feeling very restless.like a bull which hasnt had a fight in 2months.FASCUAKXCAKKC.

lao shu super super ai da mi. wth??! -.-

ashley baby(:

i jus realised. how untalented i am.or how i havent been utilizing it to the fullest. i feel very disappointed in myself. like what am i doing. there's no drive in me to want to improve. the world is so distracting, its a hindrance, its a set back, its a hassle, a burden jus to appease it. u can never do 2 things at once. not as well as doing one at a time.

but once we begin life. we get caught in the wheel. u noe the one hamsters run in? ya. except that hamsters are allowed to dismount it. but once we enter, there's no turning back. unless u have the power and will to do so. the cage is locked. the owner likes to see us suffer and run for our lives. thats wad we do sometimes. jus run away. but no matter how much or far we run on that wheel. we'll end up at the same place once again. agree? i mean. taking into consideration, the circular shape. we're as good as running on the spot. it's only a matter of time before the life we desperately want to leave behind catches up and haunts us again. many of us lack resolve, or at least a strong one. what we need is a saviour. to unlock the cage and chains that trap us in a world of impending doom. what we need is GOD.he will provide everything, all he needs is an answer. easier said than done. even though we sing, we live by faith and not by sight. sometimes it's jus not convincing enough to trust someone whom we cant see. it's like accepting super enticing candy, but the only problem is that its from a stranger. so if u ask me, what do i do? i dun have an answer now,honestly. the right thing to do is to seek refuge in god. but, so many distractions. just too many. i guess im still pretty far from breaking the cage doors. just a little more candy. and i might give in.

taking it from a christian's point of view. i NOE that god is the answer, im not forced to revolutionise to everyone that u must choose him and that u have to convert if u wanna have a good life.but it's just so hard. due to peer pressure and being afraid of friends being critical of u being religious. it's just not in in the 21st century. like, it aint cool? the media messes with our heads without us noticing. even friends will be skeptical of u trynna be religious. some. not all. all in all, it's just one big major life-long test of faith.

i want god to be the answer.

21/01/09

2009-01-21T02:37:00.002+08:00

its almost the end of this month. once again. im broke. when am i gonna watch my expenses. hanging out with marilyn and pandemonium is kinda fun(: bunch of retardedly weird yet likable girls.(: hope to do it sometime again. happy belated birthday mal. oh ya how can i forget.

so yes. finally 16(: kiddo. the 1425 word long birthday card . u better not lose that. (: u were one of the best things that happened to me in 2008. i love u alot(: muackzxz. i noe that we will never lose contact. i noe we will be at each other's funeral. even if i do forget about u. if u pop into my mind one day. ill do wad it takes to get ur contact number again(: short and sweet. thats wad u are and thats how this dedication is gonna end(: <3

oh yes. NC16 movie together. like finally.

everyone please do ur part in saving THE EARTH!!! turn off ur plugs to ur tv computer,fan,charger all this. dun think that. aiya i one person dun do nvm de. UR HEAD. if 1 million people think like that. u 1 million people are to blame if the world ends suddenly.thatll never happen but u get the point. so please. do ur part. saving electricity will slow down the global warming process. im sure u guys have felt the uncanny fluctuation of the weather. man i wish i was born in 1700. no global warming no nth. NO WAIT!!! 1700 MEANS NO DOTA!!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!

ok good night. need to orh orh.

btw. my first blog song very cute right? KAWAII!!! >.< bleahxzx! ok..... ill never do that for a long time.

13/01/09

2009-01-13T20:58:00.005+08:00

all those who are disappointed about their results. say I. I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i guess i got wad i deserved. i didnt put in 100%. it was not too late to change. but i jus couldnt bring myself together to make amendments. sighhhhh...... to me, my score was just. avg joe. plain jane. then again, i never get things right the first time. i alr knew this before o levels began. i was certain i didnt wanna let this thought get through me. but im jus too weak. to me, i failed, or barely scrapped through. i also knew there was no second chances to education. not that im aware of, at the very least. well it's too late to regret now isnt it? all i can do is make sure the people after me dun make the same mistake as i did. i know this guy named, delwin. i was there when he got his results. he wasnt happy at all. he told me to start studying now! which was jan 08. BUT I DIDNT. so im afraid that if i tell ppl to start now. they wouldnt. but seriously, it's all up to u. if u really want 8 points. u gotta at least score an 11 for R5 in ur mid year. or in prelims. dun think like me. screwing mid-years, getting 17 for prelims. coming back with 12 points. sure everyone says it aint that bad. but to me, it is not very satisfactory.

JUST, START NOW. at least familiarize yourself with 1/4 of ur textbooks by MARCH!!! SAVE YOURSELVES. if u need motivation. i dunno if im the right person to come to, but, i can try. JUST START FREAKING NOWWWWWWWWWWWW,UNDERSTAND??? TIO BO?? FAHAM TAK?? MING BAI MA??

anyway, jerome's back from hospital. yipeee. going over to his house soon. to view courses. oh yes.. START LOOKING AT COURSES NOW! if u wait until ur results come, like me. you'll be DAM LOST NOW. please give ur careers a lil thought once in awhile. u wan brochoures ASK ME! i got all from NGEE ANN AND SP.

take care all. u have about 8 or 9 months. please. it's all in your hands.

here are my results btw. big disappointment for maths and science....

ENG: A1 happy happy joy joy
B3: HIST, A AND E MATH,
A2: GEOG ELECTIVE
B4: PHY, CHEM. WTH!?!?

L1 R4 13. minus 1 for CCA so its 12. L1 R5 16.

A math is fine. i wanted A2 or B3
E math. is totally wth...supposed to A1. come back with nonsense
PHY.-.- at least a B3
CHEM omg... A2 or B3, but B4.....
Hist. WHY?!?! SUPPOSED TO BE at most A2!!! WHY??! my sbq supposed to be off the hook mannnnn.-.-

SO U SEE PEOPLE.start to study for prelims and dun give ur 100% . most prolly like that lor.KANASAIIIIIIIIIII

a wise friend once told me:it doesnt matter if u didnt make it. what matters is that ur willing to make up for it.

dam cool. well no, he didnt tell me, i ripped it off his msn nick. =/

11/01/09

2009-01-11T00:24:00.002+08:00

HOW TO KILL JARED USING MERE INSECTS

1.throw a cup of ants on my hand.
2.put me in a room FULL OF BEETLES OF ALL SIZES.
3.put 4 moths on my back.
4.throw a fistful of ladybugs on to my face.
5.make me stare at insect picture books.
6.make TOUCH insect picture books.
7.put a fuzzy caterpillar on my nose.
8.release a haven of cockroaches into my underwear.
9.tie me up and put long millipedes on my tummy.
10.keep brainwashing me that everything around me will turn into ants.

ok. jus typing this down really really creeps me out. like im super paranoid right now. feeling all heebajeebi-ish.

OMG I CANT BEAR TO READ THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok good night.

10/01/09

2009-01-10T17:30:00.003+08:00

results in 22222222222222222222222 daysssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. anxious. somehow i get the feeling im gonna get either 9 or 11 for L1R4. that's erm. satisfactory. considering that i might get a single digit. but i jus want an 8 or below. so that i can win my tuition teacher's 100BUCKSSSSZXZXS.

dam sad sia.. justin go sports school kana bully by this group of 7 malay shit bags. even though all sec 1 also. he said he didnt wanna stay anymore! but i strongly knew that this feeling and idea would pass on shortly. he'll grow up to be fit and smart. and thrash those 7 boys.

my course choices are. international business and film,sound,video. both NP.

cold shoulder.

6/01/2009

2009-01-06T00:22:00.002+08:00

I PROMISE IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN. i hope u noe that im talking about u.

although it's getting better. better than the last year and the year before. im getting there. im getting the hints. i hope im right. i can make this work. i can make us happy. i will try my best. i dont want to disappoint u. i dun wanna be the one who messes up ur life.

i think i got it.

02/01/09

2009-01-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

happy new year back to school chumps(: how's the first day going for everyone? pretty sian huh?

so lets blog about last year and certain events.

in the beginning of 2008, i was around 54-56 kg.. and then in october i suddenly jumped to a shocking new feat of 63-65 kg. and sometimes 66kg. maybe it's cause of going to the gym? cause muscle weighs more than fats. and then eating due to stress from o levels. and eating to put on mass so that training is made easier.

i had this friend called wai leong. he has a made called OG. her name is REALLY OG... ya then one day like during the o's period. she msged me.. i was like erm okkkkkk. she wanted my maid's number so i gave it to her la. then she kept msging me weird stuff like how are u. can i meet u. are u free. when u free. i got weirded out. AND TO THINK I WAS WEIRD!! but she hasnt msged me since i stopped replying. it was super super creepy.

oh yes. i'd like to introduce my new rock band friends. ASHDOWN!!! now that o's are over. can concentrate on the stuffs that really matter. like music, gym, earning the cha-ching and etc. so ya, jamming with them has always been a blast since day 1.(: i jus hope i can contribute more to the band. I NEED TO PRACTICE BASS!!!! IM SOOOO LAZY!!

next up is. english! yea i felt that my english has improved this year, vocab-wise. grammar alr like super powderful la. cause im eng-educated. but i still dunno the meaning to many words. even though o's is over. ill still pick up more words here and there.

friends. lets see. who are the friends whom i became closer to or make.there's robin, xing han, jackson jim zc hk. u noe.. the dota crew. celestine, FADLI!!! SAYANG KU!!!!!!!!!!(: <3. alfie. and some other 4/8 ppl. still got people not in my class. oh yes. jerome and i made friends witht our school's PA crew. and they seemed to like us. mayb cause we intimidate them and they feel that if they dun be nice, they'll be walloped. erm from church there's vanessa. still got who ah... OH YES! claire! erm basically closer and closer to the people i alr noe la.. but i love fadli.

so what else can i say about life in 2008.

thank u lord for the year. it has been a blast but u pulled me through even when i had neglected u many times. u still kept me close by.

OMG AND HOW CAN I FORGET MARILYN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(: she's jus so cute. and so fun to talk to and so throw-able. but i havent done that yet. i dun wanna break her. that lil fragile and feeble thingamajig(: i think that she's one of the best things that happened to me in 2008. if only i knew her earlier. we would be much better friends. but still, she's still a good friend(: cheers. see u in school on monday. ma peeps and i are coming to boogey in the school yard baby! YEA!

and yes. one final thing before i take a mini nap. this year, the insect-attack graph faced a sky-rocket incline that passed the y-axis by a mile. the frequency of attacks, the number of attacks, the various and creative ways of their attacks. like wth..... jus yesterday the same species of beetle flew on to my hand while i was playing dota. bloody shit, almost gave me a stroke. maybe this year ill suffer full body paralysis. freaking bugs. better watch whose house their flying into. mayb i should put a can of baygon beside the computer. barricade the windows with nets. rear lizards in my house cause they are pest-ers. erm they eat pests. whats that term for an animal which gets rid of pests.

ok, the end. now let's start anew. 2009. yipeekaiyea! results coming out in like a week or less.fingers-crossed. i hope you'll be happy for me.

29/12/08

2008-12-29T01:36:00.001+08:00

Underoath - Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape

Lyrics:

I heard a voice through the discord
A deluge of passersby
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by

I swear I'll know your face in the crowd
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another

Here's my kiss to betray
Desperate to brush the lips of grace
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I lied?

Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me
Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger
Hey unloving
I will love you
I will love you
I will love you

Jesus, I'm ready to come home
Jesus, I'm ready to come home
Hey unfaithful
Hey ungraceful
Hey unloving
I will love you

recently ive been catching the clock at very cool timings. 01.23 , 12.34, 11.11, u noe. running numbers. and in dota also. my money is like 666. super. super. natural.

i'd die just by missing you

28/12/08

2008-12-28T21:17:00.003+08:00

YEAH! I CREATED FACEBOOK! something which i dunno if i should be proud of. i mean i tot i would never ever create one. but i guess i wanted to give it a shot again cause lately one of my mottos is life's all about taking risks. so ya i got balls so ill give facebook a shot. but im a complete noob at it. i jus left the web, tried to find the GAMES page but i dunno wher.mayb my eyes too small? freaking cheena...-.- <==== oh look... my face!

NANA house confirm got ghost. we were watching movie in her tv room. me nana and rachel. then i was on the couch. they were on a tilam below me, i was half playing psp half watching then someone tapped my leg. i didnt care cause i thought they were disturbing me, the second time it happened i said wad. then they were like, wth u saying what for. then the third time i said wad even louder. then it didnt happen again. or was there a forth time?hmmm anywayss.... i told them about it during the day. they kept denying. nana said it really wasnt her. so ya most prolly it's rachel or some stupid hantu..in any case. the tap quite hard sia...tsk tsk.. naughty ghost.but im abit freaked out. what if it is seeing me typing all this. then he angry and dulan. tonight whack me up in my sleep! OMGGGGG!!!+_)(*&^%$#@ its ok... i can turn to the LORD(:

mothers... are naggy... super.... jus quarelled with my mum... she said that im not allowed to stay over at anyone's house anymore. hur! like i give a beeswax about what she says.

should i take a nap? i mean xh is watching some show on ch5 so i dun wanna play dota by myself. or should i try to freaking master facebook. not bad ah. over the past 19hours. ive had 8 friend requests(: lets see what happends when i check again before i sleep.

tomorrow, im goonnananana watch bedtime story yo! stick-it-to-da-man-niosis! i can type that word in 1 sec. stickittodamanniosis... ok i cant... im a failure.. A FACEBOOK NOOB!(:

nana please rid ur room of dust! omg... u breeding dust issit. everywhere u noe... and ur fan.. is as black as my birthmark.. because of dust. ok i shant complain. but i suggest u clean it at least abit. (:

ok ill see what i can do now. erm more facebook. lian-shu.

23/12/08

2008-12-23T20:03:00.002+08:00

alright man i back!!!! backanathan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so let's review langkawi.

the view from the plane is cool man. the sea is very clear. but my hotel side not very clear.dunno why also.

the food.. is jusssss AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! wa the butter prawn is freaking big okay. so much meat. dam thick also.....

yeaaa and i got to ride a jet ski by myself!!!! DAM fun and exhilirating. i went like 63km/hr. and got alot of hot ang mo on the beach also(: and ya i tried backflip into the swimming pool again. getting there i think.

go-karting was okay. i turn the steering wheel until got blister. and there was this sikh family. the man's daughter..... dammmmmm prettyy i sure. but sadly her kart broke down halfway. and her sister ah.... drive dam slow. after the go-kart right, got this score sheet thingy showing ur lap time and stuff, her sister was like 5min plus for the first round...

went to see this super buddhist place. called the 7 wells dunno dunno wad.. cfm buddhist. mus track up some hill thingy with steps. my mother made it but almost died i think ahha. the view was not bad la.. but i see before alr la this kind of view. when i went to mount ophir. when i was darn fat. almost CMI the mountain climb okay. that event spurred me on to lose weight and slim down till what i am today, a super-nova temperatured dashing young man.. jkjk

my brother took the wheel, since he recently jus received his driver's licence. shit how do u spell licence. at first my dad wouldnt allow him to drive at night cause still new mahhh. so he worked the day shift.

shopping!!! doesnt mean u see 3 exclamation marks means shopping was good okay.... there were only like 3 major shopping malls. and they are not very nice either. alot of duty-free shops all around.bought like chocolates and stuff. so ya i couldnt buy anything for u guys cause all either not nice or we had no time to shop or really look for something to buy. but i did buy 3/4 pants for myself. and then when we returned, i bought a levi's t-shirt too(: finally, a levi's shirt. and ya levi's is my fav shop now. dam nice. u jus wish u had everything in there mannnnnnnnnnzxzxzxxzx.

the hotel was not too bad. but the shower is jus retarded. u off and on again right, the water wil become freaking hot all of sudden, burned my chest..-.- so ya i warned my bro about it. so we had to leave it on while shampooing and scrubbing. the tv not bad la got star movies. 8tv which was their channel 5 i think. as usual, throughout malaysia, the channel called tv3.

oh yes!!! chinese massage!!!!!!! if not for me, my 2 brothers would be so dead. the massues(massagers,but i dunno how to spell) were from china la. so ya they asked us questions about singapore and stuff. so i became the interpreter. some i also dunno. so i shouted over to my dad to ask him. but if that was an oral exam right. i'd fail. the massage not shiok leh.... no kick one. they never use enought strength, then i never ask them to increase strength also.

i think that's about it la. didnt get to do much. not much time. 3days only. actually considered 2.

so what's good about langkawi, the people at the beach, the beach, food!!! i dunno much about the attractions cause i didnt really explore.

what's bad? the shopping.

21/12/08

2008-12-21T14:41:00.003+08:00

okay, im currently waiting for the plane right now. and there's free internet and computer so im taking this opportunity to blog farewell. wa i sound like im going away forever. so ya. ill be back by tuesday, around 6plus? 7? xinghan.. get ready ur dota. eh eh wait. i think my mum said something about a xmas dinner thingy. so xinghan, please be back by 830-9pm.. the com here no dota also. if got ah.... ill probably be missing my airplane.

the malaysia airlines freaking small...-.-

i hope there's nice things to do and buy there. but all i got is 50rm. which i exchanged my 10bucks with with andrew.

so ya. goodbye everyone.see u guys in 72hours ++

LANGKAWIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

20/12/08

2008-12-20T23:50:00.001+08:00

by the way, my new blog song is kinda noisy. it's escape the fate, what can u expect. so ya, screamo screamo one. but nice la. u can lower your volume abit. i advice it....(:

20/12/08

2008-12-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

JEROME IS FINALLY 16. i guess you can consider us best friend. but i need to go check the qualifications, criterion, quotas in order to consider someone your best friend. so ya another birthday tribute, this time to the slut.

we've known each other since primary school but only talked when we were p6. we've had many ups and downs,majority of them during our adolescence, we ARE still in our teen years but ya, i mean like last year, and the year before. we are both almost alike. what we like, who we like, what we were like. i guess we'll grow under the influence of each other's image.if you ask me to think of one thing that we both dont agree on is, erm, i dunno, i cant think. oh ya, he doesnt fancy anime and shos like heroes. FREAKING BITCH SLUT. we even got the same PSLE score of 215. but he stupid boy go to some lousy class in sec3. kidding kidding. then he drop dnt and take basic chinese. so.....ONLY CAN GO POLY!!!!! jkjkjkjkjk. i dunno what else to say. but you're me brother ji ku way. which mean erm like. u noe la.... dam super brother, unbreakable bond shit thingy la.... ok it'll start to get abit emo and serious from here on..

ill always feel a certain sense of security and warmth and joy whenever we hang out. you're one friend i really love. i fear this may sound gay but who cares. im sure everyone else has a friend like that. what's so wrong to want to show gratitude and to honour your friend. so ya, i think that's all i have to say. i love you brother(: and u better too, you freaking hooker.

im going to LANGKAWI tomorrow, and for some of you who dont noe... ITS IN FREAKING MALAYSIA, ive got people like xing han telling me dun blufff cause he thought i made that up. and i have even better people like kimberley asking me where i going, 3 times.... casue she said it wouldnt register.

L.A.N.G.K.A.W.I it's in MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok i think everyone got that..

i guess it's time for luke chapter 14, he's been away for quite awhile now.

so Luke sat down and thought about the world and it's inhabitants, and how they were going straight to hell. he was certain that god was looking down at everyone in pity and sadness. one sin too many.. he wished he could be better. less sinful. he was a sucker for temptations, he was running low on resistance. he just couldnt pull himself together to fashion out his faith barrier. but then again, it's not like he was the only one. he wished that statement was true, that there were others like him, weak in faith, weak in will, a pawn of the devil. but if there were others like him, that'd make him ordinary and just like everyone else. so yet another question bolted through his clouded mind. how would, how could he go about to be different? there was a fork in his road of faith. one, to be an instrument of god, and the other, to be a tool of the devil. being an instrument of god proved rewarding but the latter sounded inviting. the road to reach the fork had begun. current position, the lane of temptation. would it be too late to turn back, this christmas, Luke is expecting a change, a turning point, a guide, a light, a path, a SAVIOUR once a gain.

so that concludes this chapter. im worried about luke.let's not damage the happy aura my blog emits. so many parties and gatherings. which should i go to!!!! all i noe is, i wanna be with you as much as i can this xmas.(:

alright guys, time to go bathe,dota,pack,watch heroes.ill try to update regularly.):

LUKE: BUT WHY ARE PEOPLE THREATENED BY ANYTHING THAT'S DIFFERENT FROM THEM?

10/12/08

2008-12-10T15:47:00.002+08:00

sorry for being late again. but ya i alr wished u guys. so this is jus a dedication. to ROBIN AND XINGHAN!!!!!!!! MY 2 BLOODY PUNDEYNATHAN FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

robin: im jus too overjoyed that i met someone like u... your jokes, sometimes freaking funny. sometimes not too bad. sometimes, i not listening at all cause u tell me at the wrong times... haha. but ya. its always great to be around u cause, u can never run out of shit to say and we always have a good laugh... about almost anything. it's hard to find friends like u. or maybe i havent looked hard enough. but knowing you alr i think is enough.. there's always a place for u in my house if ur mum or dad pisses u off. u can come anytime. but whether im home or not. now that's a diff story. i dont wish to have known u earlier because right.... we would be alot of stupider.....cause u noe, there's dota.... and more dota and jus playing a fool.....and mahjong... but i dun wish to stop knowing u either. final words, U WEAK SHIT! always dun wan go gym. no la jus kiddin. i dunno what to say about u. but hanging out with u and xinghan and all always makes me smile.

XING HAN! bloody pundeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy........ the friday and saturday night dota sessions... wa shiokanathan la dey.....now we can do that forever. i can say what u and i talk about on my blog cause can kana matalai one.... but ya.. i think that u think that i noe that u noe that i noe that u noe what im talking about. but ya when u me robin combine conversation... imba rubbish bullshit everything doesnt make sense la dey...u lousy nooobbbbbb lose to us in soccerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. even though i say this to veryone i post about right... i really do mean it la.. i just have to say that i wont regret knowing u. it's kinda cliche but ya who cares. its the sincerity that counts!

in conclusion right, im afraid of losing contact with u guys cause it'll be a wasted friendship. so ya ill try not to make that happen.but once we go ITE/POLY, there's a possibility that many things will change... so ya. we better watch out i tell you. pundeynathans 3 cheers to us. even if we hardly see each other anymore. dota will definitely bring us together somehow. and also, we might even be working at the same hair saloon, u cut robin wash i sweep.steady?!(: nice plan. see you guys at the movie.

10/12/08

2008-12-10T15:39:00.002+08:00

BAD THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wa im dam pissed i tell u...... recently unfortunate events have been happening to meeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok so first off. i was using the com again. i put my socks like on the floor, at the computer table.... then after awhile, another beetle came in.. like wth is its problem. so it landed on my sock.... plucking up my courage to rival a lion's.... i picked up the sock.... and guess what i did... ehehehehehe..... i drenched in under a tap.. trying to make the beetle slip out. but it clang on tight!! so i put it in the toilet bowl... and tried smacking it against the sides. finally it came out.. and i flushed it... bye bye beetle!!!! i think tonight, one more will come....... so ill be mentally prepared.

NEXT!! i lost my ez link... at another park... east coast park.. like what the fish mannnnn dam pissed..... and then i went to try to make a new one just now, i wasnt allowed cause im out of unity sec alr so ya........ DAM SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanted to make a new one. cause i wanna keep it as memoirs. dammmmmmmmm wasted.... i like to keep this kind of things. very sentimental and u noe, it just brings a feeling of nostalgia if u ponder over dated things....

and then i think there's more but i dunno alr... just came back from zi cheng's house. impromto stay over. dam fun to play dota in the same room.. so ya abit tired. but going to watch quarantine later! and then more dota for tonight. okay it's time to catch up on my anime. see you around. and xmas is around the corner! should i spend it with church peeps or school peeps.... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

man i wonder what happened to luke....

3/12/08 BEETLE FIGHT

2008-12-03T01:59:00.002+08:00

YO DUDES AND DUDETTES!!! miss me??? i thought so too mann... hahah jk jk... OK its been awhile since i had a beetle fight.... this time.... IT FREAKING FLEW AT ME TWICE.LIKE WHAT THE FISH MAN!!!!! WHY ME! WHY MY HOUSE! WHY YEW TEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID SHIT!!!! So ya good thing i wasnt busy playng dota, i was watching anime. so i paused and decided to arm myself with what i call the insect atomic bomb. A.K.A baygon!!! so ya it attacked my thighs. petrified me at instances during my anime cause i could hear its distinct buzzing noise. i was too much of a wussy to squash it with tissue. OH yes now i rmb. i was playing dota when it came in. and then it was during anime when i intoxicated it to they with my trusty baygon. but the canister is kinda empty now. gotta rearm!!! i dunno if it's carcass is still there but i dont intend to find out. it should be cleared by now, i mean, my maid's pretty observant and all.

SO i learnt a very valuable lesson on saturday. NEVER EVER go to the beach when the scorching sun will definately beat down on ur tender and fragile skin. NEVER! stupid sun burns.. gave us a hell lot of pain and agony. drying yourself with a towel even hurts ok..... but at least i got a good tan... the hokkien mee, fried carrot cake, char kway teow stall IS TO DIE FOR!! at harbourfront kopitiam. u noe where u take the sentosa shuttle bus from? ya.. dam shiok. everything dish there is 2bucks. savoury, mouth-watering, goodness. but i think the hokkien mee standard dropped...): pity......

so ive been dota-ing alot. gotta go buy my world of warcraft prepaid card.... i got 2 jobs. one part time one free lance. COME VISIT ME IN THE ZOO someday.... like many of u people would critique by saying, wa u clean elephant shit ah. I SAY NO!!! banquet part time. yea... something like a waiter. AND HOLY MAMA i keep hearing something behind me.. like wings flapping and banging into things.see wad one beetle could do to you. the pyschological fear that wont go away.

ok i tink i should stop. too long also u guys wont read.... so ya. good night. off to watch D.Gray-man. and the title of this anime has no link to the characters wadsoeva. no one is named D.Gray-man. not even a thing is named it. i dunno y... stupid japanese..... k bye bye! sleep tight! dun let the beetles bite! jerome is going malaysia in apporximately 3hours. good bye to that slut(: may god watch over him and his daddy(:

31/10/08 HAHAHAHAHA i bluff only it's 16/11/08 now

2008-11-16T15:01:00.002+08:00

okay happy super belated birthday to nana. you noe im always late. so ya.anyway, this short stuff over here "claims" that she knew me since i was young so im her self-proclaimed childhood friend. everyone wants to be my friend. sigh.... haha. ok but i do agree that we were in the same church when we were young stupid kids. my parents and yours were in the same choir. you'll always be my mangkuk even if u dun cut bangs. cause, im not being unreasonable, you are jus very mangkuk-ish la. anyway, sorry i skipped your 16th birthday.): but i noe u still love me(: see all better. next year if i dun go, i cut mangkuk also okay? have pity on my ears cause everytime im around you, youll always have something to say.not only to me, but to everyone else. except erhem.!! when he drives u speechless. okay thanks for being my friend. for giving me the assurance i needed so badly before. thanks for the couch when i stayed at your house. thanks for letting me watch heroes on your com and you got a virus after that. my bad, but it's your fault. so nana, one more thing to say, thanks for aunty mel. eh no no, erm thanks for being a good shoulder rest.(: love.

16/11/08

2008-11-16T14:26:00.002+08:00

so i imagined the end of o levels to be much more exciting,fun and relieving. but i dunno why, after my last paper. i didnt feel any of those, at least not much. maybe we all started enjoying too early, like after our ss paper. i guess we kinda got rid of most of the weight that's been holding us down, before the last 2 or 3 papers came. all in all, i think ill be able pass every subject. but how good, it's a different matter. it's hard to try to determine how well u actually can score. after almost every paper, everyone will be discussing and sometimes argueing over the answers. why the unecessary stress when it's over and nothing can be done. i understand, im one to talk. i did the same too. i guess for such major and crucial exams, the one thing that over pressured students like us needs is a little assurance.that's almost enough to get us through the day. at the end of each paper, we all ask ourselves if our individual efforts were ample, sincere and useful.one tiny weight at a go, we feel lighter, more liberated like how energy is dissipated during a chemical reaction. slowly our binded wings are loosened, as they do, we perch on a cliff, ever-ready to soar and feel the joy and exhilaration of being free. how much we enjoy the flight will depend on the amount of effort and diligence put in to ensure zero turbulence. those who know that they've given it their everything will enjoy every minute of it. on the contrary, those who did not give 100% will always look back, full of insecurity,instability and fear.maybe it's just too late to regret. but there's always a second chance in life. you just have to know where to look. think possibilities, make opportunities.

so i ask myself, did i give it my all? i'd say that i didnt. i wouldnt call it sloppy but i did try alot. im confident my results will satisfy my parents. but a little less as to whether i myself would be the least bit contented. the higher u aim, the greater you fall, if u dont make the right moves at the right time.i guess im one of those birds that will always dwell on the past.because not everyone, will get it right the first time.potentials are limitless, strengths have yet to be unlocked.these things are at the palm of your hands. are u going to embrace it, or leave it dormant.bear in mind that the one thing that u can never change or alter, is time.

the next migratory path would be one with many forks in the road. so many options, so many offers, all are crucial to the rest of your life.but which is within your power and capacity to manage? once again, the clock is ticking. it's not all fun and games, there still is work to be done. your choice of career will determine the kind of life you lead in the years to come. 2012's the end of the world, i dont believe in it. dont let myths and fables and urban legends hinder you from giving your life the attention it deserves and requires.

and when you've finally settled down, your time is almost up. youve made the right choices or at least the choices that have helped you survived. the moment of fear has passed you. you would have moved on by now. the second chance would not have been needed after all.are in control of your own ball game or is it STILL controlling you?

wa i think this reflection, super A1.(: even though english is over, ill still improve my english.
so i dun think that ill get my 8points.but if i do, 100bucks baby, from my tuition teacher(:
seriously really wanna work at celestine's father's pet shop. can touch dog all u noe. dam shiok. even though 5bucks isnt really wad im looking for. but i love animals. so what the heck anyways. i wanna work at famous amos so that i can steal the recipe. and hehehe.......i feel like im plankton.but im a smaller loser than he is.

middleman = good friend

6/10/08

2008-10-06T18:35:00.002+08:00

another birthday dedication.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY VANESSA!!!!(: though we've only been talking more and have become closer for about 4months now,it has been a great friendship. now i noe we were acquaintances before, but now, we're almost good friends. thanks for listening to my problems sometimes.. jus so happen that im messaging u and something bad happens to me... you're an omen... haha kiddin. thank u for the brand marks. even though they dont last long.. youre always there to revive them again. and y am i saying thanks..and i dunno how long im gonna put up with ur cannibalistic behaviour.this new rekindled friendship still has a long way to go,so happy happy joy joy.(: sorry that ive disappointed u by u noe... but i noe that u can forgive me(: i would gladly appreciate if u would stop slapping my body at uncalledfor instances. haha no la kiddin. slap la, ur hand will hurt not me. please get some perfume, it's a good thing i have sinus.haha u noe im kiddin la. please dont bite me.so ya all the best for your o's and with me, you'll definitely get that A for math. and remember jesus loves u.

vanessa's so ulgy she makes blind children cry. yea yea thats wad i say on the outside....(:

alright.... so my L1R4 is like 17... which i am quite happy about. compared to mid year. thats a 13 point difference. but there's definitely room for improvement. im so overjoyed. i got A2 for eng. first time.. but i need to push harder for A1. not that easy man.. jus need to brush up on vocab to boost my compo marks.

all's well that ends well. i dun really noe wad it means. but im sure it's something to do with relief and it's benefitial. well i gotta eat dinner and study now. if u are reading this.. u should study too. if youre taking o's la. study smart guys. if u need motivation, then youre looking at the wrong guy, teehee.(:

china SHOULD have just stuck with manufacturing 2B pencils. look what they've done. cardboard pao. melamine milk. what next? cloning an army of yao mings to bring about global destruction? putting disc fargments into croissants? manufacturing handphones that only operate in CHINESE???!!! OH THE HORRORR!!! CHINESE!!!! make wood resin out of placenta??? EEWWWWWWWw

19/9/08

2008-09-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KIMBERLEY!!!!!(: it's going to be about 1 year since ive known u now. just wanna say thanks for everything, it's been a great friendship. i wouldnt call it ups and downs. but i dunno what to call it either. awkward instances? ya thats more like it. anyway just wanna thank u for all the times u listened to my juicy stories.. haha. and ya likewise, i will be able to do the same. isnt that what ive alr been doing. theres much more to this friendship. it's still young.(: ill never regret the first message i sent to u to start of our new friendship. it was, ' i drank green tea!!!' hahahaha. okay hope u had a memorable sweet 16. take taxi cause got too many presents.BIG DEAL MAN. ahaha.even though i didnt have that many presents.so ya,god bless.and remember that i love you(:

OKAY SO HERE'S pretty much what happened.

i went to avril lavigne's concert!!!! HAHA So last minute manzxzx. good thing my finally allowed. it was alright, you know, quite good. but now whenever i hear and avril song i feel very weird. i didnt participate much during the concert. so ya mus be something to do with it. marilyn and her fansite buddies and i went to try to catch avril at the airport. and we DID! i got a pic of her. she's so cute and hot. wearing black shades and a black hoody. she dam katek!! (short) macam ants.. haha but cute la.so ya definitely will remember avril's concert. WILL I LIKE AVRIL NOW!!! STAY TUNED FOR MORE UPDATES TO SEE IF THE UNEXPECTED WILL HAPPEN! im not much of an avril fan. but im starting to give her a chance, i miss avril. haha. marilyn are u happy upon reading these words u never though i would say?!?!!?!?

my PRELIMS WAS FAIRLY PLEASING!! I PASSED EVERYTHING!!! except physic. 49.33333333333333333333333333 -.- anyway to void that dismay, i passed a math and clb!!! hahahaaha so shiok, this means i have to work harder. my a math pass was border line. very risky. well i got A2 for eng!!! SO PROUD OF MYSELF. CONGRATS TO JOEL AND DARLENE TOO!!!(: hope we can maintain this. and hope that 48 will be able to improve on its eng too.my efforts paid off. but i need to work even harder to clinch those As.... MARK MY WORDS CANDICE. ILL SEE BOTH OUR NAMES ON THE TOP 10 list. i hope =x

that's pretty much it i guess. sorry for my absence.

oh yes new additions to the family. FADLI AND I JUST HAD A BABY BOY! AND HIS NAME IS JOEL(: since im a catholic, and my babe is a muslim. that makes joel a mutholic. and we jus bought a pet from SPCA, it's a plane it's a bird no wait it's ROBIN!!!!! heeeee. now we're one big happy family(:

okay good night, gonna study now. take care guys. study smart.(:

5/9/08

2008-09-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

jim and i were talking on the train. being all philosophical and stuff. like proverbs i think thats what u call it.

the early bird gets the worms, then he added. the second mouse gets the cheese. COOL RIGHT! for those of u who are reading this for the first time.

whatever it is, after o levels, i mus keep it contact with yi guo and jerome. die die also must. 3 of us will be fit masters(:

I WANNA LEARN PIANOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

ITS TIME FOR A NEW LUKE CHAPTER: luke chapter 13

hey everyone,Luke here, im in a dilemma now. should i be persevering and hold on, or be wise and give up like the rest did. the deepest gold to mine. the best thing to do now is to be a friend when she's in need. nothing more. cause she's taken i guess. who knows this relationship would only reach the good friend level. well it's good enough for me i guess. it will be. it'll be like a miracle cause at the rate things are going, it might be something impossible to achieve.life is tough. it's so hard to shape. oh well at least now i got a clearer view of what to do.

i guess u all might know who luke is now.

okay jared's back, anyway if u guys are free go check out ronald macdonald insanity on youtube. heres the link. some of u may find it a waste of time, some of u will laugh after awhile. some of u will lol throughout the entire thing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q16KpquGsIc

ICE NINE KILLS ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! another hardcore band im falling in love with.

k good night. need to pang sai. =x

29/8/08

2008-08-30T01:03:00.002+08:00

so i changed my music playlist thingy. please hear the songs. very nice! haah. each time u visit, select the next song and so on and so forth. it only takes 4 visits! good bargain eh? thanks.

my birthday over... just like that.... what THE HELL!! another 363 days to go... zzzzz. sianzzz lamexxxx dotsss ... diaoxxzxz haiixxzzxz... -.- -.-||| _|_ haha!

k good night. super tired.

my ass is one nasty cheese grater.

28/8/08 THE BEST DAMN BIRTHDAY by far.

2008-08-28T22:55:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAZIM,DINESH AND ME!!!!!!!)(*&^%$#@!+_ (:

to hazim, thanks for the chemistry help. ive only started talking to u much more lately, but we seem to clique/click well together, like all the other malay guys. fun to joke with u all. motek fest!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA. shhhh. i hope youre seeing this. ill always rmb u after we graduate cause we share the same birthday, or should i say, youre blessed to have the same bday as me(:

to dinesh, turning 21. my tuition teacher and church friend. thanks for helping get thru sec 2 math and introducing me to wild boyz and some other stuff. god bless u when u enter the army(: take care dude. though i noe you will neverrrrrrr see this.

to jared from luke.hey jared, it's been great taking over ur mind. we're very much like the girl in heroes, what's her name again? jessica? jessie? youre a great host. great rival. great half.

i think this is my best birthday ever man. first time i get a surprise. haha. first time kana tao pok/moshed. ouch. i got 6 punches out of which 2 punches were miss attacks. and 2 kuti to the u noe where... cause hazim chose 16 punches and i chose tai pok. but i said eh hazim i take 8 for u. so ya i sacrifice for him cause he's a nice guy. but his punch all dam pain and all never miss.

thanks everyone for wishing me. for remembering that it's my birthday. for making me feel special, the guys who planned the surprise and those who wrote me cards and bought me stuff. most of all i have to thank marilyn for her very very sweet present that came in 3 parts. and thank jerome ahmad and yi guo for the cakkeee which was awesome. but i had only a small piece... basket. MY CAKE LEH OI!! hahahhaa. it's okay, dad bought another jus now. cutted cake at home. played my own birthday song on the guitar with daddy. went swimming with the usual gang today. fun and tiring. and cold... saw an indian couple making out -.- all of us one by one watch free show from diff angles. haha. but they are in love what can i say. they are not shy to express it.(:

guess im off to bed now. ssuper shagged.

WHO'S HARDLY WORTH WHOSE TIME? should i show perseverance or be wise and give up. am i significant or am are u confused. it's not time to talk things out, it'd just ruin everything, the weak foundation of a potentially strong fortress. i dont wanna lose it, cause there's always a feeling that there'll be something good out of this. like a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

AVRIL LAVIGNE'S COMING TO SINGAPORE!!! BIG DEALL!!! haha no la, if marilyn sees this my throat dangles...shh.

that reminds me, the bug invasion period has halted. for quite some time now i haven been violated or attacked by 6 legged fiends of doom!! yeah me!! if they dare come near me, ill stare them to death, if that doesnt work, ill run for my life. i hate it when insects chase me, there was this once, i purposely hit one fly thingy, i think it knew, it must have been like, wa which bastard hatam my wing sia... circling for the culprit it found me. and started to fly around me, so ya from that point on i knew some bugs.. they have a mind of their own!! scary.... dangerous.... traumatising...

KFC 3pc chicken meal with two whipped potato... super shiok meal that fills my tummy and makes me think unicorns and fairies are real. haha no la not that shiok to the extent. beef and cheeseeee. oh yea... that's the way... and potatoes and cream sauce oh yea... i can live by dreaming like this.

god,music,you

22/8/08 naked.

2008-08-22T23:36:00.005+08:00

first off, i'd like to congratulate myself for the 9weeks of escape with long hair.(:
the tragic ending was obviously not favourable. this is how it happened.

i was walking from the hall back to class after recess. crossing the mini bridge, i was talking to mrs ram and so was zi cheng. i was the last to leave the hall. because i accompanied joel to take some prom night form. so beside mrs ram was mr oh boon teck.he gave me a very stern and gripping look. i knew he was looking at my hair so i slowly tucked my hair in as though i was scratching my ear.i thought he'd never notice.but he walked behind me and ordered me to stop. i knew it was the beginning of the end for me.he said strictly, take out your hair(if that's technically possible) not daring to oppose, i did so. then he said, the other side. i didnt tuck the right side in so i replied take out alr. speaking in his lingo. then he started shouting dam loudly: why is your hair so long! intimidated by his shouting i replied i am going to cut either today or tomorrow. again he shouted, dun bluff or something. if i didnt catch u, u think u will cut. at that moment i was severely pissed off and infuriated. firstly it's cause basically he one big ASSHOLE, secondly cause he didnt believe me,accusation of lying. ASSHOLE 2.0. still tolerable, yet enraged, i wanted so much to talk back but i controlled my emotions and EQ. wadever that means. he commanded me to follow him, after a few steps he stopped again to shout, YOUR HAIR IS DISGUSTING. that was the last straw, thirdly, his hair was wayyyy more disgusting than mine, secondly he insulted my hairstyle, thirdly he doesnt now the trend he thinks his slope is in fashion and cool. AH KA PUI AH! if u guys ever get the chance to look at him, compare his hair and mine. ASSHOLE 3.0. in wad way is my hair disgusting.... -.- cant he jus understand and update himself to this modern time. ASSHOLE 3.5 he started walking again and i followed bearing an enormous grudge within me. if i could element bend, his ass will go up in the sky i tell u.imma burn his outdated ass all the way to beijing olympics. he pointed in the direction of mr chew's office and shouted one last time telling me to go there. mr chew was watching the whole time, even more trouble...anyway i had a strong feeling he was going to bring me to him anyways. ASSHOLE 4.0
so i made my way to the DM's office.as usual, he reiterated his usual blabbering. cannot take o level, barred from it worldwide. asked me why my hair wasnt cut in which i gave the same reason as i did to ASSHOLE 4.0 i cant rmb wad his counter was but it jus made no sense at all.as usual, his mole always caught my attention.he told me to get it cut which i thought was merciful of him. and report to him after sch by 5pm. ill skip the report writing part. i was dismissed and i ran back to class. wanting to get away from him asap. and i slipped and fell-.- my knee hurts.. good thing he didnt see. if not... he will lol.lmao.rofl.and as usual mdm ng will add on her comments hinting the i told you so kinda thing.i couldnt tolerate anymore,i stood up and argued with her.she knew i was very angry, by my body language, she said that i should go out of class and reflect, i jus gave her the wadever look and went to the back of the class to see maths paper answers.now i noe wad aggravate the situation really means. wow this is an awfully long post.

school bell rang. i headed straight to the barber. as usual i never ever looked good after a hair cut. i walked embarrassedly back to school, good thing was that jerome robin and zicheng were there to accompany me.reported to mr chew.omg this is super paiseh for him. he immediately questioned me, why arent u in AEP. i told u by 5pm, i told u strictly to attend AEP first, and wad did u not understand dunno wad. i was afraid to speak up, but subconsciously i said, my AEP starts at 1.30 ( he thought is was 12.30) LOSER PIECE OF SENDENG. anyone to vouch for it he said with an element of apology and embarrassment. i pointed as i said zicheng and robin. i dun wan any students to vouch. i will call teacher to check, if u are lying u will face dunno wad. something bad la. i was like IN YOUR FACE MAN!!!!! then he asked me to pull down my fringe. unacceptable he took out a pair of scissors from his office and told me to cut somemore. so i cut it. didnt look too bad. alr bad enough but didnt make it worse either. i passed the inspection. he called my teacher and admitted that it was 1.30. tsk tsk. think before u say. somemore he shouted at me cause he thought i skipped AEP. he gave me some morale-boosting speech saying wad ur teacher said u have improved in class, behaving well. this i gotta thank mdm ng for kinda saving my ass abit. continuing, he sad we have high hopes for u to do well la all that jazz... at that point of time i knew this was the end of the saga.

ANYWAY, i feel naked cause a part of me has jus been stripped away, it's as good as im not wearing any clothes.it's okay. laugh all u want guys. ive laughed at people too. so i cant get angry if u guys do. jus shoot ur spears into my hearts. i can take the criticism.my hair isnt revolutionary anymore!): i need to drown my sorrows

ANYWAY! we shifted back to our 4th level classroom. i found this note by some girl. it was so sweet luh. she did some research that i like avatar and beef and cheese. she drew some avatar emoticon and wrote down some beef and cheese recipe thingy. i thought it was really nice. although i have no idea who she is. but she did mention she is a girl.can tell from the handwriting.
that's all i guess. thanks to the anonymous person for the note. ill keep it forever. not regarding the fact i may never noe who it is from.

i think chin chou together with uncooked magee mee rocks.

10/8/08 18days to my birthday!!(:

2008-08-10T22:30:00.002+08:00

friday night: super fun bbq. ahah with jackson and friends. everyone topless. so shiok la. one fun part was that jim and i caught a frog!! haha. dam scary yet exhilarating at the same time.in the end we let it go. jim was the man. haha but i was a half man for transfering the frog from the cup to a curry plastic bag.

well god works in mysterious ways. he sent me a huge piece of a puzzle. it wasnt to my favour but i guess it was good that i saw it. i didnt see everything but i saw enough to make sure my heart would shatter once again and enough to know that i should stay in my guardhouse and be a good doggy.. thank u lord for this enlightenment. HEAR MY CRY!!!!!! CATCH MY TEARRS!!!!

what should luke do now, which chess piece should he move? everyone needs a superman. even superman himself. (note that i referred to luke as superman. heeee heee...)

well at least she didnt noe that i was right under her noes. okay that sounds disgusting. haha.

i need a luke chapter soon. gotta go into my emo-state and start reflecting and pondering and dwelling.

EMO-STATE NOW!!!!!!!! ruby red aura engulfs me, hair flares up and starts to turn gold, lightning surges around me like a forcefield, shirt starts to disintegrate and fade away until only my pants have not, screams: AHH!!!!!!!!!!!! clenches fists tightly, my whole room starts to vibrate and shake, and my mum, curious, checks out the situation, she opens the door and my high velocity gust blows her out, she goes like weeeee and i go like oh crap, then my pupils turn white and the white fades away, and my pupils become green. im this super hot guy with green eyes and longer hair, anything that stands in my way just crumbles, even humans, to their knees.

omg i dunno when my prelims start. shoot!! yi guo is coming to stay over and study. YEA super long never bond with him.it's gonna be a fun night.

yea i bought a new bag. jansport. i bought renoma shirts. wee. mini shopping spree.

EMILY PANG SEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u owe me like alot.......

i think mtv should look for me. so i can have like a sweet16 series episode for me. hhaha. okay should stop this ego madness.. leonidas from 300 or more popularly, meet the spartans questions, madness? my eyes widen as quick and large as the sunrise, and he shouts at the top of his lungs, THIS IS SPARTAA!!!!!! and his right leg retracts to muster up all the potential energy, exhaling, he thrusts his leg attempting to plunge me into the pit of death, but unexpectedly, i am jumper, (: so i warp( move at super high speed/teleport) behind him and he stumbles and tries to balance himself, lifting his head up, he immediately searches for me, i re-appear behind him and push him down the pit of death, i give a two thumbs up to the bewildered spectator spartans and start singing bon jovi's IT'S MY LIFE! and then i teleport to cinderella's castle and throw her down the tower. yipee what an exciting day, i made 2 random characters fall to their death. now it's time to act like prince markuluky and say rapunzel rapunzel lay down your golden hair. then i will scale her hair, possessing a shaver in my hands. i climb over the parapet and plug my shave in. WHAAAAOOOAAHHHH!!!the shaver rumbles.she gasps and then starts to scream. i corner her and raise the shaver and start shaving her head!!!! and as u all would have guessed. i throw her over as well. death count:3

sorry ah, being very very random.okay yi guo reaching soon. gotta study, bye guys. hancock at my pancakes.

post-inconvenient truth syndrome day 2.

3/8/08

2008-08-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

NAMES OF PEOPLE I WANNA KEEP IN TOUCH WITH WHEN I LEAVE UNITY. TRY TO MAKE IT FOR LIFE.

in no specific and biased order. the first name that keeps coming up to my mind after i type down each name.

yi guo. jerome, robin, xh, jackson, jim, zc, hk, joel, fadli, alfie, haiman, hazim, ahmad, yan, jonathan, these are all the guys ive bonded quite close to i guess. ill reupdate when i think of more.

as for the girlzxzxzxsszxzsxszxzxszxs.....

NONE! no la jus kidding.

liliang, thaslim, komathi, fiza, celestine, okay time to sleep. update next weekend. good night again. love u all. muackzxzxzsxzszxszxszxsxzszxszxzszxszxszxzsxs

3/8/08 SPLENDOUR OF THE KING!!(:

2008-08-03T22:28:00.002+08:00

HOW GREAT IS OUR GODDD!!!!!!(:

yea study plan.

monday: chem and phy
tuesday: history
wednesday: comb hum.
thursday: chem and phy
friday: maths
saturday: comb hum
sunday: history and maths

REPEAT TILL COWS COME HOME!!!

plans after o levels: record EP(extended play) with ashdown.
go genting with friends. chalet. music. rejoin drums. practice bass. obtain a super nice body. oh yea... so shiok.

and it's time to try to get a girlfriend again. it's been over a year now.. so ya. i kinda forgot the feeling of having one. so ya. one more thing to do. work on love life i guess.

im especially attracted to people who love music, can play music, have a passion for it. i dunno why but it's easy to relate to them. NOTE THAT IM NOT HINTING TO ANY GIRL WHO READS THIS. people = male and female. not that i like boys.

i mean i have my darling fiance fadli. this handsome malay guy in class. so robin can back off. if u touch my fadli i will personally settle with you. i will protect fadli at all costs.

which reminds me. 4/4 vs 4/8 score 1:1 it was a good game! very tough. and my sayang sprained his ankle. awww poor baby. i will pray for u my love. PLEASE NOTE THAT I AM NOT GAY. IM JUST PUTTING UP AN ACT.EVERYONE IN CLASS ENJOYS IT I GUESS.HAHA.IM GONNA MISS ALL THESE GOOD TIMES IN THE MONTHS TOO COME): SO SAD..... it;s good and bad that o levels are over.

excuse me, i need to cry now. LUKE hand me a piece of tissue please. hahaha. kiddin about the crying part. good night everyone.

27/7/08

2008-07-27T01:13:00.002+08:00

AND I AM HARDLY WORTH YOUR TIME?

busy week huh? hope we'll have more opportunities to catch up and bond soon.

i cant think of wad to type cause ya i need to drop some bombs on some islands if u know wad i mean? my plane has reached maximum cappaaacity, i need to release and start the air raid now.

just know that to me, what we have is true.
i don't know about your side of the story. but i hope it's not ugly.

making friends is reeallyyyy hard sometimes, after that... being a friend is even harder. i need a book on this. if not ill stick to keeping to myself and having few friends with many acquaintances.
people like me are just born to be this way. SIANXXZXZX haixzxzxxzx -.- ... dots diaoxxxxzzxzx

25/7/08 CHAPTER 12 LUKE!!!

2008-07-25T23:06:00.002+08:00

everytime Luke tries to make a difference in life. he fails the first time, when he tries the second time, the chances of succeeding is higher, then again, no guarantee he'll do it right.by the time that's over, he may have already chosen to move on, or he'll just keep waiting for a third try. if he chooses to move on, he will fail again for the first time he tries to change another new part of life. if he chooses to wait,him waiting becomes as good as running away from life. this process is very much like the water cycle, like a convection current, like how the sun rises everyday, it's an eternal and repetitive process. Luke was never meant to succeed or do anything right, he was never meant to prosper and revolutionize anything. Luke decided that he, was just as good as nothing. but on the bright side, there's been certain changes to his life lately. glad and thankful for those changes. Luke found out that life is like a puzzle. but the only hard thing is that u dunno what the pieces are supposed to form. there's no box that shows u the complete picture. the prints on the pieces can change from time to time, so it's like starting all over again sometimes. you're put to the test constantly.you're supposed to turn your fate into your favour. you never know wad puzzle your life looks like. the only way to find out is to take things one step at a time. no rushing. slowly at your own pace. so that as every piece is fit in, the picture becomes less ominous, less vague, less suspenseful.by the time u finish the puzzle, you dun have the luxury to bask in it's beauty. because your time is up, because life itself is a life-long puzzle. makes sense yea?

my dear friends, i tell you most solemnly. Luke is not hard to find.
Luke will disappear when he is caught by everyone.

4/8 vs 4/9 score 2 : 1
4/8 vs 5/1&5/2 score 3 : 2

YIPEE! join the 4/8 football club! 4/8 football forum. check out our merchandise! not available at all leading departmental stores.

okay freaking tired. toes dam pain cause of my too small boots. dam it.... skin tear again. AH! im so sick of everything. one way to end it? die!(:

13/07/08 THE FIGHT(:

2008-07-13T09:47:00.002+08:00

yes i have jamming with ashdown later! and i cant practice cause my dad took both the guitars with him to church. -.- oh well. so im crash coursing the songs now. gotta print them. shit.. which reminds me, i need to shit now too. stupid ko ko krunch.... crunch or krunch??

how's my life been lately? rather stressful like everyone else i guess. so many things going on. how am i supposed to study. school finishes so late everyday. i got no time to relax. go home then immediately must eat then bathe then study...AHHH!!!! sure it's only for 3 months more. but will we all be able to survive this madness? this is madness. madness?? THIS IS SPARTA!!!!

practice or practise. advise or advice?

havent been updating regularly, sorry all. if your internet pages always load up the old posts and youre anticipating a new entry but there isnt 1. i jus have no time or am too tired.

flag day was dam slack.... went to ymca, collect the tin. then went to grand cathay to slack. after that wasted 18bucks on jamming rubbish. haha.oh well i didnt pay anyways. oh ya i did. 2 bucks.

shit my quote of the week is outdated.k while im out later, ill think of a new one. buh bye!(:

5/7/08

2008-07-05T22:36:00.002+08:00

happy independence day to all americans. yesterday.

wa finally can blog. this whole week dam tiring. i sleep for at least one period everyday. so shiok. but really cannot open my eyes leh...............

had jamming with pandemonium today. yeah finally. ahmad always complain they got excuses for not coming. haha. how true is that i dunno. anyway. jamming was okay. bloody hell i jus remembered sufyan only paid 5 bucks for jammin when it was supposed to be 9 per person-.- and pandemonium did not even pay at all. most ex session ever. 45bucks.i went out with 30 dollars. now left with like 3? where oh where did my money go. oh where oh where can it be.

the rhapsody was boring man...... well at least something else was worth it.duration like an hour plus. no intermission..... WAD KIND OF CONCERT IS THIS? some people where so nice. some people dressed not smart-casually. i found that my dressing like shit. my shirt too big... crap manzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzx. gotta go get new t-shirts. cause im wearing those i used to where during my fat years.

Luke chapter 11
no matter how clear cut victory seems to get for luke, he never wins. reason: unknown.
time of realisation: unknown
well at least his prayers are getting answered now. the tide is turning.slowly, but surely. he's turning this around.finally there's something real to hold on to.or is it just another mirage.

my dear friends, i tell you most solemnly. Luke is not hard to find.
Luke will disappear when he is caught by everyone.

it's a beautiful full moon tonight.hey pretty lady can i talk to you for a second. the passing clouds will be our disguise. no one will see us. you dont have to be shy to be there for me cause you said you would. let's hold hands and fall asleep tonight.

26/6/08 i will never stop hating

2008-06-26T19:11:00.003+08:00

i will never ever in my entire life stop hating insects.... WAD DID I EVER DO TO THEM?!@#%%&*(&($ well i agree i killed them but... this was waht happened.

one of the nights, i was studying for my history test. innocently and diligently. then i head something enter my study room. i knew at once it was an insect cause of the low buzzing noise of its wings.. so i tried not to mind it and carry on reading. then i felt that it was closing in on me. i was like the navy ship of world war 2 and the freaking beetle was the kamikaze pilot of japan. so it crashed. RIGHT INTO MY PANTS!!!!! OMGWTF!!@$!@%$#^$^&* yea!! crash alr still dare to crawl inside. another omgwtf!@#%$%&%( bloody hell i was dam scared okay. i shouted so loud. folded the waist part of my pants and flicked it out one million times. still crawl in further. stupid thing. so i folded more pants and finally i managed to flick it onto the floor. then justin came to check out the commotion and sissy shouting. okay not sissy. erm manly shouting. then my mother also come out. i woke her up. shit.... good thing my grandma abit deaf also and my aunty is a heavy sleeper. so i didnt cause much panic. yup it played hide and seek with justin and i. i didnt dare to catch it even after i put the tissue over it. so in the end, my maid helped. good thing she came back from indonesia alr. if not i wouldnt be able to study. and i would have failed today's test. STUPID DUMB BEETLE!!! serves u right for trying to get intimate with my thighs. lol? good riddance. THE END.

please support me and all the bug haters. sign ur name for the anti-bugs-that-invade-your-pants-campaign. thank u. your support will go a long way. shalom.

wa my maid cook the chicken wing dam shiok sia. hehe(: bye bye.

24/6/08 drafts(:

2008-06-24T21:52:00.003+08:00

hello everyone, how are u guys doing? back to school huh. sucks right.. im sure alot of u hate school. but u all like the people. ahhh back to studying! those who are taking O's please start asap. no more procrastinating. no more waiting. no more laziness. let's come back next year as graduates not retainees. kerpish?

Luke chapter 10: short conversation.

A dear friend asked luke. "how are you?" he replied "i'm fine thank you" he held himself back from confessing this instead "im dying without you!"

Luke's fast but he's a late bloomer??

my dear friends, i tell you most solemnly. Luke is not hard to find.
Luke will disappear when he is caught by everyone.

and as you know, there will ALWAYS be henchmen. dont ask. it's freaking random. but it sounds nice. along with the lemons i ate together with my peanut butter toast bread. just kidding. gross.
some stupid small insect collided into my right cheek.yucks please. and my tuition room was invaded by ferocious bugs! huge ones! i drew my graphs in fear that night...): i daren't look out the window as i feared one would dive straight into my face. i would just die. and scream like a wussy. and my blood pressure would rise. cardiovascular diseases of all sorts occuring at a single instant. oh the horror! insects, jared's worst enemy.

20/6/08 time

2008-06-20T01:57:00.002+08:00

has anyone noticed that ever since erm. 2006 time has been passing by faster and faster?!!? im not kiddin man. the only thing i wanna zoom pass right now is my O's. gosh i cant wait to start on my piano lessons.

EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE.IT'S JUST THE MATTER OF WHETHER U WANNA WAIT FOR CHANGE TO COME OR NOT. HAVE FAITH. THAT EVERYTHING WILL FALL INTO PLACE.

alright i gotta go nappy nappy now.. STUPID HOLIDAYS END SO FAST. moe sucks.

i am special, god loves me. you are special, god loves you too. we are all special children of god. and god loves us one and all.(: amen.

CHEERS! he'll turn into an alien before your very eyes. he's ben 10!

18/6/08

2008-06-19T00:00:00.003+08:00

and just when ive finally gotten hold of the precious thing. i have to let go of it. am i not fated to be with it ever? is this a sign. that i should venture to look for new jewells? there's only one way. forward. there's no turning back. u make decisions and u dun look back. no matter how much u regret making them after that.

always starting off on the wrong foot. using the wrong approach. i can never get anything right the first time. this, is my downfall.

i need pixie dust. poof. everything's fine. im out of the winding road. running to paradise.

want to escape? do it in a few steps
1. choose a secret,remote and isolated corner
2. sit there
3. don't move or make a sound
4. escaped

one piece of advise, don't come out till you're ready again.